There were 5 of us. One person in front of me, 3 people behind me. We were walking on a bridge, high high above roaring water. Then suddenly there was a turn, and the next section of the bridge was only two long pieces of fabric, stretched from one end to the other, with no railing and nothing to hold but two pieces of rope hanging from the top, one for each hand.

I was terrified, but there was no other way to go except to walk on that bridge to get to the other side. Slowly we walked, and nearing the end, the person in front of me fell and her leg got caught by the rope so she didn't free fall to the angry waters.

She yelled at me to not worry about her and to keep going.

So I walked on, my legs trembling with each step. But I got to the end just fine. I was thinking to climb up to the ledge but I thought if I did, the whole bridge would shake and the people behind me would fall. Then the person behind me was close to falling and shook the whole bridge and I was close to falling too. At the end I decided to climb up, deciding that it would lighten the load that the bridge has to hold. When I did, it was okay, and everybody made it.

That was the dream I had a couple of days ago but it wasn't the first time I have that dream. It was probably the third or fourth time, but the difference is this time I made it to the end while in the previous times I never did.

Do you think this was only a dream, or is there some hidden meaning behind it?

When everybody's in and you're left out
And you feel you're drowning in the shadow of a doubt
Everyone's a miracle in their own way
Just listen to yourself, not what other people say

When it's seems you're lost, alone and feeling down
Remember everybody's different; just take a look around

Right here, right now
You're exactly where you're supposed to be

When you want to give up and your heart's about to break
Remember that you're perfect; God makes no mistakes

*extracted from Welcome to Wherever You Are - Bon Jovi

Kemarin gw bikin acara BBQ-an di backyard rmh gw. Backyardnya gw hias pake lilin-lilin biar lebih cantik dan menarik. Gw udah deg-degan aja takut hujan, soalnya semingguan tuh udah hujan terus dan kemarin jg seharian mendung banget. Dari berhari-hari sebelumnya gw udah doa mayan kenceng biar ngga hujan, abisnya kalau BBQ-an hujan-hujanan kan ngga seru banget.

Terus kmrn sepanjang hari doa gw makin kenceng. Abisnya seharian hujan tuh bawel banget. Ntar hujan. Ntar berenti. Ntar hujan lagi. Gimana gw ngga dagdigdug coba.

Sekitar 2 jam sebelum acaranya mulai it started raining pretty hard. Makin stress deh gw. Tapi gw pikir well, mendingan hujan gede sekarang biar malemnya ngga hujan. Beneran loh, pas malemnya tuh ngga hujan sama sekali jadi acara dengan lilin itu berjalan lumayan lancar.

Nah begitu semua undangan sudah pulang, pas setelah orang terakhir pulang dan semua lilin-lilin dan lentera-lentera udah dimasukkin ke rumah, hujan turun dengan amat deras sekali! Gillaaaaaa... gw dikasih kesempatan buat BBQ-an sama Tuhan! Timing hujannya tuh couldn't be better. I couldn't stop thanking Him. Hehe. I was completely in awe.

Awesome. My God is just awesome.

* take a look at my cake..

Coba ya.. Tadi gw baca horoscope gw di Friendster, gw ngga percaya sih horoscope* gituan, tapi baca doonnnggg.....

Leo
That enthusiasm you felt about a certain someone is still there -- it's just hiding.

Ha-ha-ha.

*it's my birthday todayy... :)

Lately I've been having really bad cravings.

I've been craving for Coke everyday. And I've also been craving for really creamy and fattening chocolate cake. Also for chips. Hot chips or crisps don't matter. And hot chocolate. I've been eating a bucket of cotton candy.

Really fattening stuff.. Then I remembered reading something about the link between what kind of food you're craving and the way you're feeling. So I looked it up on the net and found a list. Here goes:

1. Craving for Coke - You feel overwhelmed by work and you want to have more energy.
Fact: I've been juggling uni, a part time job, tutoring, church, housework, social life (which I am definitely lacking).. yes, I want more energy!

2. Craving for chocolate cake - You feel empty, insecure, possibly from lack of love.
Fact: That pretty much sums it up.

3. Craving for salty stuff (chips, etc etc) - You feel empty because of frustration or anger.
Fact: In a way, I guess.. They just don't get me.

4. Craving for hot chocolate - You've saved hurt feelings throughout the whole day and now you want to ease your ego so you can sleep.
Fact: Sometimes.

5. Craving for sugary sweets - You want to feel energetic or to overcome burnout.
Fact: Isn't this basically the same as no. 1?

There you have it! I guess it is true that there is a link between what kind of food you're craving and how you're feeling.

For the full list, click here.

Besok tanggal 17 Agustus yaa..

Orang-orang bilang Indonesia itu negara jelek, kacau, orang-orangnya ngga tau adat, memalukan, dll dsb..

Honestly, menurut gw emang semua yg diatas itu bener.. Tapi sejelek-jeleknya Indo, it's still home.. They say home is where the heart is.. And you can't just leave your heart and live without a heart. Right?

Selama gw disini, kalau gw diharuskan nyanyi Indonesia Raya, gw pasti merinding dan harus menahan diri gw buat ngga berkaca-kaca. Rasanya gimanaaaaa gitu.. Hehe. Beda banget sama jaman-jaman gw harus upacara tiap Senin pagi. Dulu nyanyi itu just because gw harus nyanyi, tapi kali ini nyanyi itu rasanya emang dari hati.. Beda.

Tapi sebenernya kalau dipikir-pikir, kita ini belum merdeka. Masih terikat kebodohan, kemiskinan, kekurangan.. Apa merdekanya coba?

Despite all things, selamat hari kemerdekaan semuanya..!!

Huhu kangen nih..

Imagine this
A cup of hot tea on a rainy day
Looking out the window, watching the trees sway
But you know for sure you have a warm place to stay

Or maybe imagine this
Blue sky with light clouds to shade your way
The soft wind blowing your worries away
Making life seem like nothing but a child's play

Or better yet, imagine this
Your Father in heaven wiping your tears away
Kissing your pain better and you can hear Him say
"I love you and I will never leave you to stray"

Kita terlalu sering menghakimi orang lain sebelum kita melihat ke diri kita sendiri. Kita sering merasa kesel kalau orang melakukan sesuatu yang kita ngga suka, padahal kadang kita sendiri melakukan itu. Kesel kalau orang nyetir mepet-mepet di pantat mobil kita, padahal kita suka ngga sabaran kalau nyetir dan melakukan hal yang sama. Kesel kalau orang nengok ngeliatin kita waktu kita masuk ke satu ruangan, padahal kalau ada orang lain yang masuk ke dalam ruangan kita juga suka ngeliatin.

Kuman diseberang lautan keliatan, gajah dipelupuk mata ngga keliatan. Pernah denger kan pepatah itu? Bener banget. Di Alkitab aja bilang, gimana caranya kita mau ngeluarin serbuk gergaji di mata orang kalau di mata kita sendiri ada papan yang nutupin?

Kita terlalu sering menghakimi orang. Apa hak kita coba marah-marah ke orang untuk suatu hal yang kita sendiri lakukan? Kenapa kita ngga coba untuk introspeksi diri dulu sebelum buka mulut buat hakimin orang lain?

I think I jinxed it. When people ask me if Sony Ericsson k800i is good, I always say, great! It's awesome. The best you could ever have. Yesterday I was telling my brother how awesome it is and he's thinking of getting one. Then my phone rang. When I picked up, it just died! I couldn't receive or make any calls the whole afternoon. I thought it just had a bit of a "cough". I took out the battery and left it off for a few hours. Then I tried again. It still wouldn't work. Then out of the blue, it decided it just doesn't wanna turn on again! Dang, I jinxed it..

I took it for a service today and apparently it needs to get sent to Melbourne so it will take 14 working days at least before I get it back. I'm sad... :(

BUT despite all this, I still think k800i is an awesome phone and I wouldn't trade it for anything :)

ps. kalau gw seharusnya contact loe tapi gw ngga contact*, bkn karena gw sombong, tapi nomor loe tersimpan dengan baik di memory card gw dan blum dipindahkan ke hape sementara gw.. dan 3 gw lg out of service atm soalnya hapenya di pake.. :P

There's a lot of things that can make me happy. Little things like:

1. Waking up in the morning and knowing that I still have a few hours left to sleep.
2. Having pimples that leave no scar whatsoever on my skin.
3. When a song I like is played on the radio.
4. Finishing my homework earlier than expected.
5. It rains when I'm in bed.
6. When the person I miss misses me too.

But I guess right now those are too "expensive" for me to have.

If I could divide myself into parts and give each part to a different person if that could make them happy, I would. Trust me, I would. It seems like everybody thinks that they have something important to do and I don't. So I could do their things for them and sacrifice everything that I have in line for me.

If I could, I would divide myself into parts and keep one little piece, just one little piece, for me.