orang sini crucially butuh 3 buku manual:

1. Driving for Dummies: what to do when you see an approaching car.
Okay, what to do is, when you're coming out from one street to another, please look left and right before you turn. when you see a car coming and you don't think that you will make it in the given time, do not, i repeat, do not turn. There is life insurance, but it doesn't actually give your life back. It just gives you money in the amount of what they think your life is worth.

2. Crossing the Road for Dummies: the importance of looking left and right before crossing.
Before your cross the road, it is crucial that you look left and right, and left once again to make sure that there is no car coming your way anytime soon. If the car looks like it's going to reach the place you're standing in a couple of seconds, do not cross. Do not risk your life. remember, life insurance does not give your life back.

3. Caring for Your Children for Dummies: things you need to know when you have children.
Children need constant supervision. When you are standing at the side of the road with your children, please do keep an eye on them. They might decide to cross the road without you. Little children also find moving cars very fascinating so they tend to approach a moving car. Please be mindful of the very shocked driver and the very shocked child. You would probably be shocked too.

iseng :P

Write down 13 of ur fave songs:
1. seperti pelangi - dygta.
2. deep and meaningless - rooster.
3. breathing - lifehouse.
4. you belong to me - lifehouse.
5. home - michael buble.
6. lagu rindu - kerispatih.
7. laguku - ungu.
8. i will fly - ten2five.
9. you and me - lifehouse.
10. hasrat - pangeran kuning.
11. masih - ada band.
12. diatas normal - peterpan.
13. kenangan terindah - samsons.

what do u remember when u hear no4?
+ masa* LD.

does no12 make u happy?
+ in a sarcastic way, yes.

has no3 made u cry?
+ close to, but no.

in what occasion would u hear no9?
+ klo lg maw nostalgia kli ya.

do u miss no13?
+ yeah actually. i do. dengerin ah.

which lyrics do u like the best from no1?
+ 'ingin ku melupakanmu, namun slalu ku rindu. tak ingin kusesali, walau slalu di hatiku'.

do u imagine something when u hear no2?
+ yeah. 'my love for you is deep and meaningless'.

whom do u remember when u hear no6?
+ masa lalu.

where was the last time u hear no12?
+ wuidih. udh lama kyna.

who told u about no8?
+ hmmm.. i cant remember.

do u often sing no11?
+ kadang* ajah. byasanya klo abis ada yg nelpon. abis ringtone gw lagu ini sih.

have u sung no7 to anyone?
+ haha yeah.

does no10 inspire ur life?
+ well, no, not really. but it made me live :)

does no5 tell about ur feeling?
+ yeah. homesickness.

what do u feel when u hear no2?
+ sakit hati. banged.

do u smile when u hear no11?
+ hehe yeah.

when was the last time u heard no1?
+ barusan, d mobil.

if u could dedicate no9 to someone, who would it be?
+ the person who told me about this song by singing it to me. solo. with a guitar.

does no7 mean a lot to u?
+ it does. 'mungkin hanya lewat lagu ini, akan kunyatakan rasa cintaku padamu, rinduku padamu tak bertepi'.

what's so special about no10?
+ it was written for me :)

would u sing no13 to anyone? who?
+ yeah, why not? to whom? hmm.. a part of my past.

does no8 remind u of someone?
+ yeah. this girl at school who sang this song so brilliantly while playing the piano.

what memory come to ur mind when u hear no5?
+ waduh. apa ya? jakarta. dan sgala kesibukannya.

do u want to hear no4 right now?
+ ngga ah. nti jd sedih.

can u remember clearly the first time u hear no3?
+ yeap. d rmh temen, sambil tiduran d ranjang dya n daydreaming/bernostalgia. hehe.

i have this pair of pink converse. dulu blinya susah banged, soalnya mahal. tp akhirnya gw decide untuk bli juga stelah ribuan kli bolak balik masuk tokonya. ive always wanted to own a pair of converse dr jaman* gw smp. tiap pgi ataw pulang skolah, lyat anak* skolah negri pake converse item, duh pengeeenn.. banged. tp baru kesampean bli kira* 3 taon yg lalu.

gw happy banged waktu abis bli, it was the perfect pair of shoes. itu sesuatu yg udh gw pengen punya dr duluuu banged trus dapet nya susah lagi. plus, blinya pake uang sndiri pula. gw pake tiap hari n saking seringnya d cuci, skrg udh brubah warna jd pink abu* dekil gtu, n even the pink is starting to fade away.

trus gw decide i wanna buy another pair thats exactly the same to replace my old one. funnily enough, stelah gw bli, adaaa aja complainnya soal spatu gw itu. yg ngga se-comfy yg dulu lah, yg warnanya rada beda sama yg dulu lah, adaaa aja. i felt that i had to get used to this new pair of shoes all over again. but stelah gw terbyasa sama smua perbedaan spatu baru gw dgn spatu lama gw, gw cinta mati sama spatu baru gw ini.

this made me think. yeah, i do set a criteria for my so-called perfect guy. i mean, who doesnt? n yes, i found someone like that once, he met all my criterias. sweet, romantic, nice, plays music, sings, plays sport. pretty much all. dapetnya ngga gampang, butuh perjuangan. n he was someone i had always looked for almost all my life. then i lost him. just like my old pair of shoes. it faded away. one day, i will find someone else. he might be similar to my past, but he will never be the same. gw akan eventually sayang banged this new guy, but my past is my past, hes part of me n nothing will ever replace that.

its hard when you think that you found something so perfect, then you have to lose it. its hard to replace it. it doesnt happen overnight. but you know what? i cant wait to leave my past behind n let it be what it is. the past. a chapter in my life that has made me who i am.

since the past 2 weeks, ive actually got a roommate! hahah. senangnyaahh... lonely no more dehh.. now she bears witness to all my ugly sleeping habits [maluuuww], my craziness [especially when it's getting late], my non-stop laughing fits n my stupid victory dances. hehe.

let me quote a typical night conversation between us:

[background music: don't make me wait - 911]
her: why do anyone do anything at all, really.
me: *rolling around on the bed laughing*
her: yeah, he's gone and done an owen.
me: yeah i know. i really should learn to forgive people, you know. or maybe i should start by forgiving myself first for wanting to put one's foot in one's mouth. gosh, im so fat, i should really go on a diet. loe lg ngapain? seru ngga game nya? eh bsok gw anterin loe k uni ya.
her: uhmm.. you should really shut up. you're rambling.
me: *rolling around on the bed wheezing [cara ktawa which sounds approximately like this: ngikngikngikngik]*
her: lampard should really dig a grave for himself.
me: yeap. and ronaldo got stupid. and fat.
her: *boys boys boys boys*
me: hmm.. i want a hot boyfriend.. imagine chocolate.. on sweet caramel.. yumm.. that's gotta be bad for my teeth.
her: you're disgusting.

yah, bgtulah a typical conversation between us. every night. morning. day. then we both suffer great big headaches from lack of sleep. we dont really have a bedtime now. we go to sleep when everybody else wakes up.

Gue laaaa nulis2 sini macam orang ngga tau diri. mweeheheheheh... mwehehe.. mwehe... ah bosen. iya gue ketiduran waktu lagi buat exam gue pas lagi ngerjain MCQ hehehehe gue takut ngorok ato ngigo mungkin lucu kali ya... "zz..ZZZ.....zzz....YEAH BABYYY... YEAAAH.... OH YEAAAH..zzz..zzzzZZZ..." dengan semua orang di satu ruangan kira2 500an orang ngeliatin ke arah gue yg harusnya lagi ngerjain exam tapi malahan tidur hehehehe... phreak.

i dont live by my computer!

i miss the days where people actually call or send an sms to notify you of a meeting or a reunion or a catch up session. nowadays they just send an email and if you dont have time to check your email and therefore you miss the event, it's your fault. i dont live by my computer. am i supposed to?

oh, where has those phone call days gone??

summary of my week:

walking into an exam not really knowing anything. 3 goals in the last 10 minutes? double war in one day. strange dreams. sitting in the car for 3 hours by the river. a 60 minute exam. 5am bedtimes. cups of tea in the late hours of the night. crouch made up for it, but lampard, really, i don't even know where to start. weird use of language. wow, it's friday already?

and yet, that feeling is still there.

pnah ngga loe smp ke suatu masa di hidup loe, dimana loe merasa loe harus melakukan sesuatu demi nerusin your so-called existence?
pnah ngga merasa cape setengah mati melawan keinginan itu, smp akhirnya loe nyerah dan loe jalanin juga keinginan loe itu?
pnah ngga merasa lega stlh ngejalanin keinginan itu, tapi karna kebutuhan untuk memuaskan diri loe sndiri itu loe malah ngecewain orang yang loe sayang?

gw cape ngecewain orang. gw muak di kecewain orang.

saat ini gw ngga taw bentuk hati gw kaya apa. yang gw taw hati gw udh ngga utuh, udh berserakan dimana* dan gw blum cukup kuat untuk bangun lagi dan kumpulin serpihan* itu satu*.

ive realised that for a while now, ive been feeling like theres something yg ngeganjel di hati gw. you know that feeling you get when you dint properly swallow your food? it feels like that, except ini di hati dan i have no idea how to get rid of it.

sebodoh*nya keledai, dya ngga cukup bodoh untuk jatuh ke lobang yang sama 2 kli. tapi mungkin kli ke 2 dya jatuh ke lobang itu, dya melihat sesuatu di dalam sana yang worth the pain of falling. mungkin.

the worst thing a guy could ever do is make a girl fall in love and never intend to catch her fall.

I hate the way you talk to me, and the way you cut your hair.
I hate the way you drive my car.
I hate it when you stare.
I hate your big dumb combat boots, and the way you read my mind.
I hate you so much it makes me sick; it even makes me rhyme.
I hate it, I hate the way you're always right.
I hate it when you lie.
I hate it when you make me laugh, even worse when you make me cry.
I hate it that you're not around, and the fact that you didn't call.

But mostly I hate the way I don't hate you.
Not even close, not even a little bit, not even at all.

temen gw blg gw gila. ktawa sampai hampir ber-6pack. klo nti tiba* loe ktemu gw seksi dan ber-6pack, tolong congratulate temen gw yg lbh sukses dr personal trainer gw dlm menyeksikan tubuh gw. refer to sasa. iyah. shes been quite successful so far.

tapi gw skrg sdah dgn sukses menggendutkan diri. makan like theres no tmw. i guess coz im running away from something thats chasing me like theres no tmw. i need energy to run. like cake. lots and lots of cake. hmm... cake..

its been a random day. talked about a certain gorilla and a certain squirrel. gali lobang, tutup lobang, gali lobang, tutup lobang. on and on. tmn gw blg jgn jatoh k lobang yg sama 2 kli. keledai aja ngga sebodoh itu. never regret a second of it though. i just shouldve been smarter. oh well. these things happen. you just gotta move on. life goes on.

ive got an addiction for cakes. im just plain addicted. lost one addiction, picked up another. i still pick and choose my cakes though. i dont like cheesecakes. they taste funny. i like chocolate. hmm yes, chocolate.

now ive gotta go eat my law books so that ill be fine for the exams.

I, I dont know why I miss you so much
Yeah I, I dont know why I still feel your touch
You, you left me feeling high and dry
With nothing, nothing but the question why

Yeah you, I guess you had another direction
And leaving me with nothing but a dead connection

If you call me today
I'll say that I'm fine
But I bet you can tell by the tone of my voice
It's just a lie
You knew what you had
You still walked away leaving me in this mess
My love for you is deep and meaningless

You, you knew what you were doing to me
And I, I guess I was too blind to see
Well you hit where it hurt and you fooled me so bad
But I'd do it again to relive what we had
[Damn that's sad]

There are many things left to remind me
Of a love that I just cant leave behind me

- yeah, i miss you. i do. i hate missing you.

you are what you stand up for.

gw stuju sama pnyataan itu. yang bikin kita menjadi 'kita' kan apa yang kita percaya. no, this is not necessarily our religion, tp ini juga bsa hal* yang kita value di hidup kita. duh, hal yang paling simple aja deh, kita value kesetiaan misalnya. karna kita menjunjung tinggi [kok kaya plajaran PPKn ya.. hehe] kesetiaan, kita ngga akan betray temen kita, kluarga kita, atawpun pasangan kita.

seandainya kita udh janji sama tmn kita klo kita bakalan stick by her/him no matter what and faithfulness is what we live by, then kita ngga bakalan tinggalin dya the moment we hear someone saying bad stuff about them. kita akan stand up for them, n cek kebenaran brita itu. klo emang apa yang kita denger itu bener, then kita akan ksi taw tmn kita itu spy ngga berbuat gtu lg n bantu dya untuk brubah. klo brita itu ngga bener, ya cuekin aja.

ataw misalnya kita punya pacar, kita ngga akan slingkuhin dya karna kita pegang kepercayaan kita tentang kesetiaan. setia = tidak slingkuh loh. lagipula, try to put yourself into their shoes. klo loe ngga maw di slingkuhin, then dont do it to them.
if faithfulness is what you stand up for, then obviously you'll be a faithful person. right?

another example, love. you stand up for love. then loe akan jd org yg memancarkan kasih no matter where you are, no matter to who. dan byasanya ini affect other ppl loh. klo loe show mereka kasih sayang, mereka akan merasa terdorong to do the same to other ppl. a thing as simple as a smile aja contagious banged.

org akan bsa lyat what you live by dari kelakuan loe terhadap org lain n terhadap diri sndiri. kita hrs show k org klo pegangan hidup kita itu something good, something worthy, something valuable yg bikin kita maw jd org yg lbh baik lg. so choose what you stand up for carefully, because you are what you stand up for.

Aku ingin menutup mataku. Berhitung sampai 3.
Lalu saat aku membuka mataku, aku ingin ada kamu di hadapanku.
Seperti dulu. Waktu kamu sayang aku.
Seakan di dunia ini hanya ada kita dan waktu berputar hanya untuk kita.
Berdua saja.

Aku ingin kamu rindukan aku dan simpan aku di hatimu.
Aku ingin menjadi satu*nya di hatimu.
Ketika kamu tunjukkan sederet bintang di langit dan berkata,
"kalau kamu rindu, lihat bintang* itu. dan kamu akan tau aku selalu pikirkan kamu."
Aku rindu saat* itu.

Aku rindu saat* kamu ada di sampingku,
dan aku yakin kamu takkan tinggalkanku.
Ketika air mata menetes hanya karena pertengkaran konyol.
Dan kamu ada disitu untuk mengusapnya.

Saat malam* dingin tak terasa karena kamu mendekapku.
Luka* kecil tidak berarti karena kecupanmu.
Hati selalu terasa hangat karena senyummu.
Kekosongan yang selalu terisi dengan candamu.

Aku rindu itu.
Tapi itu sudah tak mungkin.
Sudah cukup semua perih yang kamu buat.
Luka yang kamu buka lagi.
Sudah cukup.

Terima kasih untuk saat* indah itu.
Walau semua sudah berlalu,
akan selalu kusimpan dalam hatiku.

I'm so fed up with my thoughts of you
And your memory
And how every song reminds me
Of what used to be

Andai di hatimu
Hanya aku cintamu
Melukiskan inginku
Walau kini ku mengerti
Kau b u k a n untukku

Your face it haunts
My once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away
All the sanity in me

tday, i made a promise to myself that im gonna study at least 2 chapters of law.. jd plg kuliah gw lgsg got right to it, takut ngga klar soalnya. rencananya jam 7 maw pgi ngeles drum, trus plg* lgsg blajar lg dan klarin 2 chapters itu, even klo gw mst smp begadang..

lalu, i got a msg:
guys, the lesson is cancelled tday coz many of u are unavailable. we'll have our lesson next wednesday. please practice in your free time. Gbu all.

wuah, gw seharusnya pergunakan my extra couple of hours itu to study right. but what did i do? i went out to dinner with my friends. btw, akhirnyaaa gw cobain es teler 77 yg buka 3 mg lalu-an itu. maann.. es teler nya enak pisan.. jd high.. ngakak tanpa ampun. hahah. trus in the meantime wkt nungguin d jmpt tmn, bknnya bljr dgn sepenuh hati, malah curhat ma nykp. trus ngga lama tmn gw dateng n kita lgsg cabut. we were there for over an hour.. blah..

nymp rmh brusaha blajar lg.. berhasil blajar a few pages. laluu gw telpon tmn gw! 2 jam lbh! duuuhhh gw tuh gawat banged deh.. trus abis itu cettinngg... hukhukhuk.. i really cant study at home.. too many distractions! its almost 2am now, n i only got half a chapter done.. :(

temptations ituuuhhh... menyebalkaaann..!!! and i always give in to it.. sebal!