it's the butterflies in the stomach
the feeling that never fades away.. the excitement that leads to euphoria and a million other little feelings..

with every anticipation of a phone call, every message received, the feeling never fades away.. :)

i am not obsessed, im just an addict.

obsessions you'll eventually let go, but addictions.. once you're in, it's hard to get out. you'll always need one more shot.. then another.. and another.. until you're so high and drugged.

you're my addiction.

almost my whole life ive been down in the dumps, looking for pieces of my brain.. maybe someone accidentally threw it out when they fetched me out of my mum's stomach..

they say u only use 2% of ur brain, and so with the little amount of brain that i have, i try to use the whole 100% of it.. well, at least 10% of it.. i bury my face in my books, i even eat my books for breakfast-lunch-dinner.. and where does that get me? nowhere.. threw me straight back into the dumps..

has anyone seen pieces of my brain? even if its only a bit, ill be so grateful to have it back..

jangan pernah, i repeat, JANGAN PERNAH doubt God's power in ur life.. He's the reason ure still here tday.. udh 3 kli gw bener* doubt kehadiran Tuhan di hidup gw.. n man, 3 kli* nya itu, He shows His presence in a HUGE way.. trust me, when i say huge, i mean HUGE.. gw smp menyesal udh brani*nya doubt Him.. hahaha..

smlm gw blg ma seseorang kawan klo gw udh mulai lose faith in Him. he sent me a beautiful message.. ill share it with u:

dont lose ur faith, keep believing in Him.
u can get this far is because of Him.
u were created by Him. He shows His love to you every single day.
every single minute. all the problems that u have is given by Him,
knowing u can get through it with His help.
draw closer to Him and He will help u.
He will never leave u.

ps. bwat kmu, thank you.. so much.. :)