lg menderita homesick yg amat sangat kronis.. :( sedihnya..

so.. gw berusaha melupakan homesick gw dgn cara nonton! hehehe.. dalam 2 hari gw dah ntn 5 film.. 4 on DVD, 1 in the movies..

ptama ntn Spanglish.. wakakak gw telat banged ya? suka banged sih, bagus.. yg maen jd anak cewenya manis sekali.. twuz abis itu ntn Eternal Sunshine Of The Spotless Mind.. filmnya berat.. tp gw suka.. you can erase someone from your mind. getting them out of your heart is another story.. i like!

kmrn, gw ntn A Love Song for Bobby Long.. awal*nya ngebingungin, tp once u flow with the storyline, bagus! john travolta suaranya bagus ya.. hehehe.. lalu, ntn Coach Carter.. asli keren banged!! gw enjoy banged ntnnya.. n since its true story, it makes the story even better.. the world needs people like him!

trus hari ini, gw ntn Charlie and the Chocolate Factory d bioskop... gila, johnny depp aktingnya keren abis.. it doesnt even seem like him! love it.. very nice.. lucu sih, there are some lines yg catchy banged.. johnny depp rocks!

yeap.. so my past few days have been occupied by movies.. menyenangkan, its like an escape to another world where for a little while, u dont have to think about ur current problems.. very nice..

selama weekend gw d rmh sendirian, cuma ada teman* yg menghibur.. hehehe.. iya gtu aja dulu deh.. ga taw maw nulis apa lagi.. daah..

** trima kasih sasa n maya.. gila klo ga ada loe org gw dah lonely abis deh..
makasih juga agnes.. kangeen... makasih ya dah dengerin gw.. mwah

have you ever felt like you just wanna disappear from the face of the earth, thinking that even if you're gone, no-one will notice anyway? or you feel like you wanna go to sleep, then just curl up in a ball under the covers and die? or be surrounded by a million people and yet you feel so so so lonely?

i bet all of us have had those kind of moments.. sebenernya its not true, we know that there are manymany people out there who care about us.. nyokap, bokap, kluarga qta yg laen, temen* deket qta.. funnily enough, if that one person you want to notice you doesnt notice you, it feels like the whole world is collapsing.. aneh ya?

kadang qta merasa we mean nothing to anyone.. pdhl qta udh denger over and over again that quote: to the world you may be one person, to one person you may be the world.. cliche maybe, but true.. ever felt how wonderful it is to know that you've made someone's day?

am i making sense?

cruisin' when the sun goes down
across the sea
searching for
somethin' inside of me

i will find all the lost pieces
heart will feel
deep and real
i was blind but now i see

yeah.. you're the one
yeah.. you're the one
yeah.. i can't live without you

take me to your place
where our hearts belong together
i will follow you
cause you're the reason that i breathe

i'll come runnin' to you
fill me with your love forever
promise you one thing
i will never let you go

cause you are my everything

+you are my everything - glenn fredly feat. red+

** katanya ini bsa jd lagu greja juga loh.. try it, change the 'you's with You.. it makes more sense..

ahh mood lg brantakkan! maybe its the hormones talking.. hehehe ga taw jg sih, tp mood benar-benar amat sangat berantakkan.. one minute im happy.. next minute im down lowlowlow.. kmrn ini mpe tanya* ma yg tadinya calon dokter tp ga jd, ibu pyro.. just wondering whether hormones itu bsa d kontrol..

katanya ibu pyro:
"ngga bsa sih, tp byasanya klo gw, karna gw dah taw gw maw bete.. yah brusahalah biar ngga sensi*.."

hehe jdnya lg brusaha biar ga sensi nih.. haha mayan berhasil.. tp td pas ntn film windstruck, which btw is bagus banged, air mata turun jg.. lalu sedihnya kebawa.. wakakak.. payah..

ps. bwat lili d bandung, makasih banged... ur sms last monday really really made my day.. love u :)

Lima aturan sederhana untuk menjadi bahagia:
1. Bebaskan hatimu dari rasa benci
2. Bebaskan pikiranmu dari segala kekuatiran
3. Hiduplah dengan sederhana
4. Give more
5. Expect less

twuz, sperti yg dah pnah gw blg d posting gw yg ini, we always have a choice. if everyday, when u wake up in the morning, u decide that u'll be a happy cheery person today, then that's what u'll be. sikon itu ngga ada hubungannya. kebahagiaan adalah sesuatu yang kamu putuskan dari awal.

so.. are you happy today?

sebenernya bener ngga si klo nyiumin baunya lavender tuh bikin bsa bobo? soalnya gw kmrn ini bli candle bau lavender gtu, abisnya gw blakangan suka aga* susah bobo, jdnya i thought it might help.. trus malem itu juga gw nyalain gtu kan.. nah pas ari itu tuh gw lg stress* nya bikin assignment.. suru bikin website gtu.. damn, im no good with that!

so gw duduk 4 hours straight in front of the computer trying to do it, mpe miss dinner sgala.. trus badan gw tuh dah cape banged rasanya.. pas gw maw tidur, hopeless abis! my brain wouldnt shut down! pdhl kamar gw tuh udh yg wangi* lavender gtu.. haha boong abis.. akhirnya berhasil juga bobo, jem stenga 3 gtu, stlh trying to convince myself that gw stress about that assignment jg ngga akan bikin assignment itu menjadi kelar.. paginya dah kaya org maw mati.. haha.. abis kuliah pagi.. kurang tidur..

jangan* sbnrnya teori lavender bsa bikin ngantuk itu d dukung ma placebo effect jg ya? btw placebo effect itu the effect of taking something yg bikin loe jadi better, but actually itu not bcoz of d actual substance, but its coz u believe it will work.. misal, loe sakit keras, trus k dktr, trus dya kasi loe pill, dya blg itu obat, pdhl vitamin doang.. trus loe sembuh soale loe pcaya itu obat bakal bikin loe sembuh dr sakit keras loe. am i making sense?

i guess its the power of the mind ya.. positive thinking matters.. hehe.. placebo effect = effect of positive thinking? kli ya? haha im sooo lacking the positive thinking.. uhh.. lg berusaha amat sangat keras si bwat positive thinking.. hehee

katanya sih.. mind over matter..

kmrn maen basket lawan anak* greja lain.. hasil?
1. team gw ngga pnah menang sekali pun
2. lutut kiri bonyok [biru* plus lecet*]
3. sluruh badan sakit kaya maw copot
hehe.. worth it? banged! hehehe i had sooo much fun.. rasanya pengen maen lagi.. the pain is worth it d... hehehe

on a more boring note.. school work aga* tidak tersentuh.. it's been the hardest semester.. gila, ga ada motivasi bwat ngerjain apa* sama skali.. ngerjain sih, tp cuma sebatas apa yg required doang.. klo blum last minute, blum jalan ni otak.. knapa ya? ini aja harusnya lagi bikin speech yang due wednesday bwat group meeting [the actual presentation is on tuesday nx week], tp bener* ngga taw maw nulis apa.. apakah ini artinya otak gw is deteriorating ya?

masih ada assignment suru bikin website yang menumpuk, which is due nx friday.. lalu nx saturday ada mid exam managerial accounting.. haha gila ya gw.. duhhh... males banged d gw jd orang.. gimana dong kawan*? adakah yg maw berbaik hati bantuin gw bikin website? or at least bantuin gw summarise beberapa chapter buku gw d.. hehe anyone interested?

hmm yesh.. im gonna go back to my speech writing.. wish me luck everyone..