hey! gw dah lama ga nyetor tulisan ya? hehe sowie, temen gw lg dateng dr jakarta jdnya pegi maen terus n klo malem ga enaq klo ninggalin dya bwat ol.. hehe n lagipula, gw lg bener* ngga taw maw nulis apa nih..

ari ini gw banyak nyetir* sendiri, pegi* kmn* sendiri.. d jalan tuw gw banyak dikepung rasa takut.. takut ditabrak dari belakang, dari samping, dari depan.. takut pas maw belok dihajar ma mobil laen.. banyak banged rasa takut.. klo nyetir tegang padahal lebih bahaya.. klo seandainya you're so scared you're gonna make a mistake, make the wrong turn, take the wrong lane, you'll be more exposed to the chance of having an accident.. iya kan? karna loe tegang and every little noise you hear will make you jump.. jdnya ntar malah salah injek, maw injek rem malah injek gas..

isnt it funny how our life is so similar to that? qta constantly takut bakal bikin mistake, make the wrong decision, go to the wrong place, choose the wrong person.. qta tegang, qta berusaha bikin idup qta se-perfect mungkin.. sebagai manusia, mungkin ga si qta jadi perfect? we make mistakes and that's how we learn, isnt it? we should live life as it comes.. jgn tegang.. the more nervous you are about life, the more likely you're gonna make a mistake.. kaya qta naek mobil aja.. takut ditabrak dari kiri, dari kanan, depan, belakang.. jdnya qta terus*an nengok.. ga pegel tuh leher?

gw taw maybe im in no place to say stuff like this, tp klo menurut gw yah, just take it easy.. life's hard enuff, why make it harder? sometimes we wish we could turn back time to take back what we said, what we did, or say what we didn't say, do what we didn't do.. life is the toughest teacher, it gives tests without warning.. but see, klo loe lg test yah, kan pas ada multiple choice question gtu, pas qta read through our answers again, we have a tendency to change at least one of our answers, iya ga? trus klo d ganti, byasanya justru malah salah, our first choice was right, betul ga?

nah, in life rite, when u wish u could turn back time to change whatever decision u've made, it's like that multi choice question.. first instinct is always the best.. jangan ganti* deh jawaban qta, what's done is done.. okay, maybe we did make the wrong decision, but we can always fix that.. klo fail exam aja msi bsa take supplementary exam or repeat the unit.. so dont stress!

akhirnya.. setelah berminggu* belajar [not really..], bermalam* tidur malam buat mengerjakan assignment [yah.. i guess so..], berhari* hujan*an ke kampus naik kereta dan bus [that's right!], setelah 4 hari berturut* exam, semester 1 selesailah sudah! hahaha akhirnya libuur.. wuah.. rasanya lega banged, kepala gw rasanya enteng banged ga usah blajar lagi for the next 6 weeks.. pretty good right? ga sabar pengen pulang ke indo, escape this place, even if only for two weeks.. it's a well needed break i tell u!

sometimes i feel like i really need to take a step back from my life and look around.. lyat*, what is it that ive been up to? what's going on in my life? gw seneng liburan ini gw pulang, so i can take a better look at my life in perth.. kadang qta emang bener* butuh take a step back to realise what's actually happening.. sometimes u dont realise that something is happening to u klo bukan orang laen yg kasi taw, ataw loe bener* refleksi diri..

klo pinjem istilahnya temen gw [thx tan, this is the best philosophy ive heard..] sebenernya idup qta sama kaya tinggalnya qta d bumi.. qta yg tinggal d bumi tuh ngga merasa kan bahwa bumi tuh muter? klo orang* yg ada d luar angkasa tuw bsa lyat klo bumi tuh sebenarnya berputar pada porosnya.. qta* yg actually on it ga bsa merasakan kan?

idup qta juga gtu.. we live our lives, thinking that all is perfect [or maybe not so..] tapi ga nyadar what's actually behind it all.. orang laen yg merhatiin qta tuw kadang malah taw what we're up to.. malah kadang mereka bsa nebak what's the reason for what's happening to us.. so menurut gw it's crucial that we take a break once in a while, step back, trus take a look.. i mean really really look.. be honest to urself.. yg loe kerjain sekarang ini, apa sih tujuannya loe kerjain? bwat dapet pujian dari orang laen? bwat diri loe sendiri? bwat orang laen? bwat idup loe in the long run? apa sih yg sebenernya qta lakuin? then maybe it can put your life back into perspective, and keep u on track for ur run towards ur goal..

klo dipikir*, semakin maju dunia ini, semakin serem loh.. the advancement in technology itu, parah.. ok yg mungkin paling menyeramkan klo d lyat*, robot* itu loh.. emang mungkin mereka membantu bikin idup qta lebih gampang.. gw waktu itu baca d majalah, katanya in a couple of years mereka bakal kluarin robot* rumah tangga kaya yg d film I, Robot itu.. serem ga si.. tar robot* itu makin lama bakal makin pinter, trus manusia d take over deh.. sayonara..

teknologi yg bikin kesel.. knapa sii, mesti ada pesawat? dulu in the first place klo ngga ada pesawat, gw msi d indo.. planes reduce distance, but they were the ones who created it in the first place.. but true, maybe klo gw ngga pindah k perth, i wouldnt be who i am now.. ur past makes u who u are.. every single thing that happens to u makes u who u are.. but ahhhhh i can't take the distance.. i can't take the miles.. i can't take the time until i next see you smile..

distance makes things more complicated.. coba deehh loe lyat, brapa banyak org si yg terpaksa harus pacaran long-distance because of this whole distance problem? but i spose i cant complain about planes since mereka reduce the distance, like i sed before.. yeah but well.. ada hitam dan putih in everything.. theres always a bright side to everything, it all depends on how u see things.. ha! i promised myself i would try to look on the bright side of life, soo.. maybe i shud try now?

tadi kebaktian pemuda di greja.. asli khotbahnya bagus banged! tentang overcoming ur hatred for someone.. katanya gini, ada 3 alasan knapa orang bsa benci ma org laen:
1. karna merasa terancam [misal: kaya jaman*nya KKK gtu dehh... kan org* putihnya merasa terancam ma org* item karna mereka lebih banyak n badannya lebih gede*..]
2. karna merasa iri [misal: merasa dirinya kalah cantik, kalah kaya, kalah pinter.. gtu* laahh...]
3. karna disakitin, harga dirinya terinjak*, nama baiknya d rusak [misal: gosip..]

naahhh tp sebenernya ya, rasa benci itu ada gunanya ga sih? ngga ada kan? malah katanya ya, banyak penyakit yang terjadi karna rasa benci ma seseorang itu loh.. sakit kulit keq, sakit maag keq, sakit kepala keq.. sakit lah pokoknya.. i spose its a psychological thing kli ya.. so.. ngapain si qta benci* ma tu org, u get nothing out of it, cuma merugikan diri loe sendiri aja..

emang si, gw akuin, susah banged bwat ngelupain rasa benci loe ma orang klo seandainya loe dah d bikin sakit ati ma tu orang.. cuma yah well.. katanya Alkitab ya, klo loe ga bsa mengasihi saudara loe yg loe bsa lyat, gimana caranya loe bsa mengasihi Tuhan yg ga klyatan? membenci itu sama dengan membunuh loh.. jadi, gmn caranya to overcome that hatred? well katanya sih, one of the ways tuh misalnya nih, loe byasa ga maw sapa tu orang duluan saking bencinya, mulailah sapa dya.. it doesnt hurt tokh? trus ya, maybe hal yg bikin loe benci ma dya itu bsa d omongin lgsg ma dyanya.. sometimes talking solves problems loh..

lagipula ya, we have to overcome evil with good, karena klo seseorang melakukan sesuatu yang jaat k eloe, klo loe balesinnya dengan kebaikan, ure only gonna heap burning coals on top of his/her head.. so.. ngapain qta benci ma orang? the world is bad enuff, lets make a difference! :)

pengen posting.. tp ngga taw maw nulis apah.. perth lg long weekend nih, but it feels like its been a short weekend! hahaha.. abis maen mulu si.. pdhl harusnya blajar..

pas ari sabtu malem, pegi k king's park rame*.. then the gals had a chat.. tentang cinta.. hehehe apalagi klo bukan tentang cinta? it was pretty ironic considering that qta tuw lg d king's park, malem*, gelap, dingin, n dikelilingin sama orang* yg lagi pacaran.. n qta ngomongin soal patah hati.. haha ironic rite?

hmm trus... ari minggu malem pegi ngafe ma anak*, lalu jalan* d beach.. it was cold sih, jdnya we dint stick around for long.. trus abis itu gw pulang.. ari ini, td siang yumcha bareng d northbridge [it was good! good price too..] trus abis itu maen timezone bentar [ah.. miss those moments maen timezone kaya org gila ma dya..], trus maen scrabble d rmh gw.. n it was raining like crazy n it was pretty damn cold too.. naahhh gmn gw maw belajar coba? hehehehe

so after everybody went home i shut myself in my room n tried to study.. mayan si, dapet 1.5 chapters.. 3 more chapters to go and econs is done.. trus bosen blajar, then i tried to write a song.. hehehe.. abis, dah lama banged rasanya ga nyentuh gitar gw! kangen.. hihi

postingnya ngga ada point-nya ya? hehehe biar deh, cuma pengen curhat doang koq.. hehehe.. oh ada point-nya ding! point-nya nih... klo lg maw exam, jauhkan dirimu dari segala godaan! such as komputer, internet, telpon, gitar [ataw alat musik lainnya], stereo, ipod [ataw sejenisnya], RANJANG, dan hal* lain yg ngga penting dalam pembelajaran eloe [cieh, bahasa gw..] hahaha.. abis klo ga ntar ujung*nya malah jadi ga blajar nih, kaya gw! bukannya blajar malah posting.. udah ah, maybe i shud go n study.. hahaha.. bwat yg maw exam, best of luck! do ur best and let God do the rest.. cheers! :)

hari ini harusnya mulai belajar, tapi bener* ngga ada motivasi sama sekali.. dari tadi adaaa aja distraction yang dicari sebagai alasan biar gw ngga usah belajar.. salah satunya ya, blogging ini.. hehe

semalem pas gw maw tidur, gw lagi mikir.. inget kan crita gw tentang luka yang di garuk? well gw lg mikir* obatinnya gimana ya klo seandainya udah kegaruk lagi? klo luka luar, gampang.. pake betadine, pake obat merah.. gampang.. tp pikirin deh, klo pas lagi saat luka itu di obatin, pasti rasanya lebih perih lagi kan? ujung*nya luka itu akan sembuh, pasti, walau kemungkinan akan meninggalkan bekas.. tapi pas saat luka itu lagi diobati, pasti perihnya setengah mati kan rasanya?

mungkin itu sama kli ya sama hati.. saat luka itu diobati, perih.. amat sangat perih sampai rasanya pengen nangis.. luka itu akan menjadi lebih perih dari sebelum*nya saat sebelum diobati.. this makes us wonder, mendingan diobatin ataw ngga ya? klo diobatin, sakit.. klo ngga, ngga sakit, biar sembuh sendiri aja.. tapi apakah klo luka itu didiemin bakal sembuh?

bwat gw saat ini, ngga diobatin berarti terus membiarkan diri gw tenggelam dalam kenangan* yang well, mungkin ngga akan pernah terjadi lagi.. klo diobatin berarti ya udah.. lupain aja.. jalanin idup lagi day by day, pelan*.. ngga usah lagi itu kenangan dipikirin.. tapi sakit..

nah, masalahnya sekarang, apakah gw memilih untuk mengobati luka itu, ataw tidak?