gw mesti bener* blajar tuk disiplin.. katanya discipline is delayed gratification, which means basically ya.. kesenangan yg tertunda kli ya? klo loe disiplin when ure trying to achieve something kan pasti ujung*nya loe bakal dapet hepi nya kan, walaupun in the process pasti susah banged..

contoh*nya nih, misal, kata temen* gw, pengen kurus.. pasti kan proses ngga makannya itu susah.. proses dietnya itu menyebalkan, bawaannya pengen makan segala sesuatu tanpa harus d batesin.. kan pasti proses itu ngga enak kan, tp ujung*nya when you get wad you were aiming for, as in jadi kurus, pasti you'd feel that everything was worth it.. delayed gratification..

another one, blajar.. wih.. jujur deh, sapa si yg ga males blajar? pasti kan klo maw exam tuh walaupun loe taw loe mesti blajar, pasti adaaaa aja temptationnya bwat ga blajar.. iya kan? pengen maen, pengen jalan*, pengen tidur, pengen males*an, pengen nonton tv, pengen baca komik.. adaaa aja pasti.. tp at the end klo loe dapet nilai bagus, kan pasti ada kesenangan tersendiri kan? delayed gratification..

kadang* emang qta fall into the trap of wanting instant gratification, maksud gw, pengen enaknya aja tanpa maw ngerasain susahnya.. misal, pengen kurus, ya udah, liposuction ajah.. kan lgsg kurus.. ga pake sengsara ga makan segala [walaupun katanya sakit banged klo d lipo..] ataw ga pengen dapet nilai bagus pas exam, beli soal ataw nyontek.. iya kan? thats instant satisfaction.. tpnya ginih, all that apakah ujung*nya ga nyusahin eloe malahan? klo liposuction bikin masalah sama body loe, klo beli soal ketangkep trus malah d kluarin dr skola..

qta taw kan rencana Tuhan tuh pasti indah, nah knapa qta malah milih jalannya setan? apakah karna rencana Tuhan itu jalannya susah walaupun ujung*nya indah dan jalan setan tuh indah walaupun ujung*nya jelek? jdnya qta maw enaknya aja, alias instant gratification? kenapa si walaupun qta udah taw gtu qta tetep fall into the trap of satan? napa qta ngga sabar* aja jalanin rencana Tuhan, kan ujung*nya qta bakal dapet sesuatu yg indah, yg bikin all the hard work worth it?

i spose that's why we have to keep our sight on the goal yah.. coz

o-Oh.. here comes that 'thing' called feelings again.. benCiiii.. bikin gw susah, sakit ati, binun mpe ga bsa tidur, stress mpe rambut gw rontok, ga bsa blajar, pengen marah*, bete, pengen nangis.. ahhh it's always like this.. the heart is ruling the head.. gila, kyna otak gw dah taw exactly the decision i shud make [maybe not THAT exact..] tp hati gw ngga maw terimaaa.. dya ga maw kerja samaaaa... dan hasilnya klo hati gw ga maw kerja sama ma otak gw, mungkin perasaan gw bakal terluka.. tapie gimana dong, hati gw ngga kasi otak gw mikir.. kyaaa...

still remember my entry about tempat penitipan hati kan? ahh.. if only there was such thing, maybe all this would be easier.. hati gw gw titipin for a couple of days, supaya gw punya waktu bwat kasi otak gw alone mikir, knock some sense into me! soo.. im still looking for that place.. can anyone help? klo dah ketemu, kabar*in gw yaahh.. hehehe

i dont wanna feel..
just let me not feel for a while..
then maybe..
maybe i'll be fine..

perasaan itu hal yang aneh.. dya datang n pergi n bsa dengan enaknya rule ur life.. dya gampang terluka.. ngga bsa d kontrol.. walaupun kadang loe bener* pengen kontrol perasaan loe supaya you dont feel a certain thing, itu susah.. mgkn bsa, ada si org yg bsa.. klo gw tergolong org yg ngga bsa kontrol perasaan gw.. katanya kan harusnya brain over feelings.. tp bwat gw itu susah banged.. i still let my feelings control my everything..

kadang* tanpa sadar karna qta maw protect feelings qta sendiri, ato lg pengen crita ttg satu hal yg menurut loe amusing, ato whatever, qta justru nyakitin orang laen.. which i did today.. n im sorry.. yeah you, you know who you are.. i am truly very sorry! padahal gw taw gmn rasanya klo seandainya feelings gw terluka, n yet knapa gw tadi dengan bodohnya bsa nyakitin perasaan dya? gw ngga bermaksud, tp tetep aja, yg namanya dah nyakitin yah dah nyakitin.. im so very sorry.. ihik... :( jangan marah yaaa... ntar d tebus dehh....

aah.. feelings.. another one of human attributes which can control our lives..

okay.. so next week is my last week in uni, trus dah gtu study break seminggu, trus exam.. kyaa... musti mulai blajar! gw nyantai bgt nih, pdhl exam gw 4 in a row.. gelo.. tp enak si, first week dah klar.. hehehe.. theres always a bright side to everything..

kmrn gw ngamuk* gara* satu hal bodoh yg ga seharusnya d amukin.. hehee.. gini critanyaaa.. kan gw jem 5 teng dah nangkring d bus station gtu maw pulang.. trus harusnya bus gw dtg jem 5.09, trus ada lg jem 5.23, trus ada lg jem 5.39.. u know wad? busnya ga ada satu pun yg dtg, trus dtg* jem 5.39an gtu.. gila.. gw bete abis man.. trus tuh bus yg full abis.. yah bayangin dong, penumpang 3 bus d paksa masuk jd satu bus.. omg.. kebayang ga pnuhnya? okei.. itu tuh dah mulai gelap.. gw benci plg dr uni klo dah gelap soale rmh gw jauh.. gw takut gelap.. trus nyampe k train station, gw kena nunggu approximately 10 menit for my train to come.. trus nyampe city, the train i was supposed to catch to get home udh gw kejar* mpe gw lari* pas gw nyampe d dpnnya dya jalan.. n itu semua gara* sang bus yg dgn enaknya dateng telat.. plis dong, hari gw panjangnya cuma 24 jam, and it doesnt extend cuma gara* bus gw telat n jdnya gw buang waktu d jalan.. gw sempet kesel banged..

pulang* gw tuh dah yg complain* marah* ma nykp gw.. nykp gw cm blg "ya udah, yang penting skrg kmu dah pulang kan? at least kmu dah nyampe dgn selamat tanpa kekurangan suatu apapun juga.. ngapain si complain*, udh lewat juga.. kmu udh nyampe juga.."

dipikir*, memang benar.. gw complain juga itu smua waktu yg terbuang ga bakal balik lagi.. gw maw marah* kaya apa juga ya udah kejadian, ga bsa d apa*in lg.. bodoh si gw, it takes twice as many muscles to frown than it does to smile.. hehehe.. harusnya i shouldnt even complain, complaining doesnt change anything.. mendingan take it easy aja.. ya ga? hehehe...

iyah, gtu aja deh curhatnyaahh.. hehehe... jd inget lagu iklan bir d spore: "always look on the bright side of life.. doodoo.. doodoodoo..."

td lg ngobrol ma tmn gw.. trus qta lg ngomongin soal how this year has flown by.. iya man, it felt like the year has just started, eh taw*nya gw dah maw finals.. dah maw semester 2.. ngebut taon ini pokoke.. i dunno, kmrn ini gw br ngmg ma tmn gw yg laen lg klo gw pgn taon ini cepet* aja deh.. hehe.. i wanna leave all my problems behind.. ga mgkn ya? no matter how far or how fast u run, u'll still be where u are.. iya kan? u can't physically leave urself.. as in.. badan loe d mana, soul loe d mana..

eniweiiiiiiiii.. iyah.. gw blg td taon ini dah byk kejadian.. bwat gw.. bwat dya.. byk lah kejadian* yg.. hmm... ngga banged! hehehe.. kayanya we know it happens to other ppl, just not us.. trus dya blg.. "well.. qta dah ga bole suffering lg.. qta harus bangun n berdiri.. kuat n semangat.." trus gw blg "ini dah berdiri, tp d sengkat terus.. jalannya tertatih2, kaya maw jatoh terus.."

then he sed this "qta klo jalan, harus slalu lyat k bawah, be humble.. jangan selalu lyat k atas, klo slalu lyat k atas u wont see klo ada yg maw sengkat.."

i guess this applies to a couple of things..
* ptama: klo loe slalu lyat k atas, loe ga bakal pnah puas.. misal, loe idup dah mayan enak lah.. emang mgkn kluarga loe ga kaya* amat, loe ga bsa foya*, tp klo loe lyat k atas terus, loe ga akan pnah puas, ngiri terus.. emang it's good bwat ngelyat k atas in the sense that loe jdnya punya target where u wanna be.. tp klo loe dah mulai ngiri*, it's not healthy.. lyat d kebawah.. banyak yg ngga bsa makan pagi siang malem.. byk yg tidur dibawah atap langit.. loe harus bsa bersyukur klo dah lyat bgtu..

* kedua: loe terus lyat k atas, feeling like u own the world.. loe merasa bsa kontrol orang* d sekitar loe dengan apa yg loe punya [materi, power, looks..] loe jd sombong, kepala loe loe angkat terus.. nah, klo dah kaya gini klo ada yg nyengkat dr bawah lyat ga? loe lyat orang* d sekeliling loe, apa feeling mereka d gtuin ma eloe.. coba klo loe d posisi mereka, would u wanna be treated the way u're treating them? think about it, put yourself into other people's shoes.. that will put ur life into perspective..

be humble.. "Berbahagialah mereka yang miskin di hadapan Allah, karena merekalah yang empunya Kerajaan Surga."

p.s. bwat kmu.. thank you for your perspective on this.. hehe nice one... bikin blog doonngg..

sebenernya klo d pikir* foto* itu lutchu ya.. coba deh, mana ada si foto yg diambil knowingly, yg orangnya lg nangis, bukannya senyum.. u know wad i mean rite? maksud gw, mana ada si foto yg everyone is lined up nicely seperti layaknya foto* normal yg qta suka take bareng temen* qta, trus d foto itu ada yg lagi nangis.. pasti ngga kan?

yah well.. i spose foto* tuh emang to capture the beautiful memories ya.. ha, sapa yg taw d balik senyuman itu ada apa.. gw sebenernya lbh suka take photos yg natural, yg ngga d bwat*.. ato skalian yg 'muka jelek'.. kadang gw bener* not in the mood for photos soale gw merasa, even if i smiled, it would be fake n bakalan kliatan jg gtu fakenya.. mendingan ngga usah.. tp klo mood gw emang lg bagus, gw tiba* jd cinta banged sama yg namanya kamera.. heheh depends on my mood sih..

klo dipikir*, mgkn ini sama juga kaya kehidupan qta.. sometimes we try soo hard to put on a brave face, senyum terus.. senyum sampe rasanya tulang pipi qta sakit n mata qta mengeluarkan air mata.. maybe we live behind a mask.. we pretend.. either kepura*an itu biar org ga byk tanya ma qta, ato qta cm maw jaim, get people to like u.. cape loh pura* terus.. sometimes u need someone tempat loe bener* bsa jd urself, tanpa takut mereka akan nge-judge eloe..

mgkn gw kadang juga pake mask itu.. gw ngga maw org byk tanya sama gw, gw ngga maw org kepo ngurusin urusan gw.. tp someday.. gw pengen banged, pengeeen banged.. bsa copotin topeng gw, tanpa takut org ngejudge gw ato even worse, mess with my life.. mudah*an if everyone in the world feels like this, there will be no more things like backstabbing or gossiping, coz everybody would feel the need for their privacy to be respected..

blakangan ini perasaan gw lg campur aduk berantakkan.. wong namanya orang lagi binun.. hehe maw ngerasain feeling yg mana jg binun..

pasalnya gini.. assignment gw, which notabene i worked my ass on, baru d balikin kmrn ini.. n u know wad? masa nilai gw pas*an! gw kecewa banged.. i mean for the amount of work yg gw dah put in tuh koq ngga worth it bgt si nilainya.. gw sedih banged, n gw justru malah jd tambah males bwat ngerjain apa*..

trus ada lg lah, hal* satu n yg lainnya yg bikin gw kesel n bete.. padahal ya, klo d pikir*, setiap hari gw bsa nemuin at least satu hal yg bsa bikin gw hepi.. n klo d add up tuh pasti jumlah hal* yg bikin gw hepi tuh jauuuhh lbh byk dr jumlah hal yg bikin gw bete..

knapa si, d antara sekian banyaknya hal* yg harusnya bikin gw merasa grateful n happy, gw malah cuma lyat yg jelek*nya aja? apakah ini yg suka d maksud dgn "karna nila setitik, rusak susu sebelangga"? hmm brarti gw msi lyat the glass as being half empty ya..

susah loh, not complaining.. susahhhh banged.. kyna on the back of my mind gw taw gw tuh ngga seharusnya complain.. mann.. i have so much to be grateful for, gw msi bsa bangun tiap pagi.. sehat.. gw msi bsa makan tiap ari, i still have a roof on top of my head.. its these little things that really count..

pas banged sama khotbah pendeta gw waktu hari minggu kmrn.. temanya "Holy Spirit: Sensasi atau sesehari?" qta kadang suka expect Roh Kudus bwat bikin sensasi* d hidup qta, supaya qta taw klo Roh Kudus tuh ada.. nyadar ga, klo seandainya Roh Kudus bikin sensasi, blum tentu qta bakal cukup kuat bwat hadepin itu.. SETIAP HARI Roh Kudus ada d hidup qta, jagain qta, tuntun qta, berkatin qta.. maybe we should all learn to be grateful for that.. yang sesehari itu yang penting, bukan yang bersensasi..

ha! i shall try to blog today.. gw bener* have no idea si maw ngomong apa..

hari ini gw sedang dilanda kebingungan yang amat sangat dalam.. bener* bingung sampe gw susah ngelyat d depan gw ada apa.. it's like.. kacamata gw burem, ngga bsa lyat jauh lagi.. gw bingung apakah apa yg sedang gw alamin tuw harusnya bikin gw hepi ato bikin gw sedih.. taw ga, td a stupid thought ran past my head.. "ahh.. coba klo dunia berakhir besok.. gw ngga usah pusing mikirin ini.. gw terbangin aja hati gw tinggi*, toh tomorrow wont come anyway..." a stupid thought rite? cuma orang bodoh aja yg mikir kaya gtu, someone yg bener* ngga plan ahead.. Live for today and not for tomorrow because tomorrow may never come, but let the choices you make today be choices you can live with tomorrow..

hmm.. tp gw bener* bingung.. gw mesti bli lap kacamata kyna.. bersihin kacamata gw.. sa, mungkin ini kli yg d maksud dengan mata yang sudah berdebu.. berdebu.. amat sangat berdebu..

im braindead today.. seriously.. td nyoba bikin peer econs.. masa gw cm bsa bikin 1 out of 5 questions? come on... ihh dodol banged siiiiiiiihhh.. trus td brusaha bikin peer marketing.. tidak ada satu katapun yg bsa gw pake bwat gw submit yg kluar dari kepala gw.. gw knapaaa????

gw ari ini lg kesel actually.. kesel banged deh.. ga taw napa.. actually taw.. tp saking dah bosennya gara* kesel gara* hal yang sama i refuse to talk about it, to think about it.. sampe hati gw aja dah cape, pegell.. beraatt... eh ada tempat penitipan hati ga? kan klo tas klo pas loe lg shopping dah berat, bsa d titipin.. trus ntar tinggal ambil nomer, trus pick it up before u go.. klo hati, bsa d titipin ga? gw punya dah berat nih.. titip donngg..

udah ah.. kesel ih... byee..

tiap ari qta lyat hundreds and thousands of people.. ketemu d jalan, d kreta, d uni, d train station, dmn*.. these people may be strangers to u now, but all of ur friends were strangers too once.. mgkn aja that guy who stood in front of u in a line at a supermarket ternyata lecturer loe next semester.. mgkn aja that lady yg papasan ma loe d toilet tnyata tmn SD nyokap loe.. mgkn aja that guy yg loe senggol waktu lg turun tangga tnyata bakal jadi pacar loe.. there are all these strangers around u yg somehow, somewhere, sometime might be related to u...

pnah lyat iklan apaaa gtu ga yg critanya ada bapak* lg naek mobil, trus dya lg nunggu lampu merah or something eh diselak sama tante*.. trus dya klakson* sambil marah* k tu org.. trus tnyt ni bapak tu lg buru* maw k dokter gigi.. pas nyampe k dokter gigi tnyata dokter giginya tuh tante* yg dya amuk tadi.. see, u never know how these strangers r gonna b a part of ur life..

sebenernya serem loh klo d pikirin wad a small world it is.. taw ga, pas gw umur 13 kan gw pindah k Perth, d skola gw ktm ma satu anak yg dah tinggal d Perth for most of her life, tp tnyata she went to the same playgroup as me d indo, dalam kurun waktu yg sama! wad are d chances of that? ato tnyata nykpnya temen gw dulu murid TKnya oma gw.. now give me d chances of that.. it's a damn small world.. maybe we're all related in some way, qta ngga taw aja..

but i learnt one thing from all this.. treat everyone u meet with respect, because u dont know who they were, who they are, who they might be in the future.. bayangin klo loe selak satu org pas loe lg ngantri, trus taw*nya dya bos loe d kantor baru loe.. loe bakal d treat kaya apa ma dya.. lagipula, everyone deserves to be treated with respect right? so do so, treat people d way u want to be treated.. that's always a good place to start! :)

hidup qta tuh kaya saluran TV, programnya macem*.. kadang ada program yang qta ngga pengen nonton, kaya acara* yang ada setan*nya [gw si ga nonton, takut.. hehe] tapi qta ngga bsa milih program apaan yang di tampilin d saluran qta.. sama aja kan ama hidup qta.. qta ngga bsa milih apa yang bakal terjadi sama qta, "Program Coordinator"nya yang milih, in other words, God.. Dya yang pilih apa yang terjadi sama qta.. oke, maybe not so much 'milih'.. but He chooses wad kind of things yang bakal Dya let happen k qta.. Dya taw kemampuan qta..

on our good days, waktu frequency qta pas, gambar TVnya jelas, suaranya juga jelas.. waktu antena-nya ngga kesenggol, ngga ketiup angin, gambar en suaranya bagus.. klo seandainya qta merasa our life is going according to plan, segala sesuatunya pasti jelas.. loe taw apa yang loe lyat, loe ngerti apa yang loe denger.. loe ngga berasa ada apapun yang terselubung, yang ngga kelyatan sama eloe..

nah, klo hari lagi ujan, ato ada angin kenceng, pasti TV loe kresek*, gambarnya ngga jelas.. kelyatannya kaya ada semut lari* ngerubungin layar TV eloe.. loe ngga yakin apa yang loe lyat, apa yang loe denger.. sama d sama idup qta.. klo ada hal yang mengganggu eloe, misal masalah temen, masalah kluarga, ato ada a blast from the past, frequency loe kacaw.. nothing is clear anymore, loe merasa ada seusatu yang tersembunyi dari eloe, gambarnya ngga jelas.. you don't know where life is taking you..

trus, klo udah kaya gini, loe mesti ngapain? klo frequency loe dah kacaw, antena loe ketiup angin, gambar TV loe ga klyatan, loe mesti ngapain? jujur, gw ngga taw.. klo menurut gw, in these times all you can do is zip up your jacket, climb your roof in the rain, and fix your antenna and move on.. mungkin nanti badainya bakal dateng lagi, but you'd be strong enough.. you've climbed up that roof once in the rain, you can do it again, justru loe bakal dah taw trik-nya, gimana supaya ngga jatoh..

klo loe dah ga kuat, udh brusaha sebsa mungkin bwat benerin tp masih kresek*, gimana? now this calls for help.. loe bsa minta tolong sama temen loe, sama family loe, sapa taw mereka bsa bantuin loe benerin.. sometimes sharing helps loh.. sometimes all you need is someone who listens.. occupy yourself, get busy, get help.. mudah*an TV loe bsa jelas lagi..

tadi family dinner d resto seafood gtu.. trus critanya kan gw mo pesen lemon lime bitters, trus orgnya blg gini "i'm sorry, we can only serve that to people over 18, it's alcoholic." gw bengong.

1. gw baru taw lemon lime bitters tu alcoholic. selama ini gw order ngga pnah ada problem with ordering it, plus dd gw yg baru umur 13 order jg ga pnah ada masalah, di bolehin aja gtu.. but its always been in a different restaurant sii..
2. I AM OVER 18! wuaahh.. gw dah yg bengong n dgn culunnya dan kagetnya gw blg "mm.. i am over 18.." orangnya lgsg yg kaya "oohh im sorry! you dont look 18, are you sure you're over 18?" uhuk.. gw ga taw whether to be flattered to be told that i look younger than i am, ato kesel d blg kliatan kaya anak kecil.. wakakak.. trus dya ga pcaya lg gw blg gw dah over 18! trus gw nunjuk bonyok gw, minta backing.. hwahaha.. trus my mum blg "yes, she is 18.. in fact she's gonna be 19 soon.." haha orgnya lgsg yg ga enak gtu.. but i took it as a compliment, artinya gw awet muda! ;)

hahah crita gw ngga ada pointnya ya? i just thought it was funny..

eits.. something just happened again.. haha now its like.. 11.22PM.. lalu gw msi ol.. trus smua org nyapa gw gtu.. this is a weird occurence by the way, ga byasa*nya kaya gini.. trus SMUA orang nanyanya gini "hey dri, blom bobo?" buset.. everyone bow.. trus gw tanya ma tmn gw, "koq smua org tanyanya gtu siiiiiiihh..." then u know wad he sed? "abis loe tampangnya kaya anak kecil sih.." ihiikk.. does that mean im childish? ato.. awet muda? hahaha [looking on the bright side hereee.. hahaha]

tp seriously.. does age matter that much? emangnya bener, kedewasaan seseorang itu diukur dari seberapa banyak umurnya? gw si personally ngga setuju sama itu, karna menurut gw kedewasaan seseorang itu tergantung sama cara berpikir dya, yg byasanya kebentuk karna situasi dan kondisi.. temen* gw yg umurnya sepantaran, kyna kedewasaannya beda with each person deh.. dan byasanya kedewasaan each person itu beda bidangnya.. misal, one is lbh dewasa ngadepin masalah family, the other masalah temen, another one masalah pacaran, beda* smua deh..

hmm... trus maybe the people you hang out with juga affect tingkat kedewasaan loe kli ya? you learn a lot about life i spose klo loe hang out ma org* yg lebih tua dari eloe.. ma org* yg lebih muda loe bsa blajar untuk jadi lbh innocent.. to look at the world from a different perspective.. gw td pagi ngobrol ma anak* skola minggu.. they're like.. year 5 kebawah.. uuhh they look at the world with such a simple mind.. gw jd blajar, maybe the world isn't that complicated.. cuma qta aja yg bikin dunia tuh complicated banged..

maybe emang umur doesn't determine tingkat kedewasaan seseorang ya.. and looks can certainly deceive..

udah ah, anak kecil mo bobo.. biar mukanya awet muda terus dan lembut selembut pantat bayi [wakakak.. what thheeee??].. daaaahhh

wahh... finally my weekend has come! wakakak ari ini gw day off.. uuhhh seneng banged rasanya there's no more uni for the week.. minggu ini cape banged, assignment ada 2 yg due, plus ari ini ada test tadi... uff.. capee!!

kmrn ketinggalan train lagi! ih gara* gw still yakin aja dari rmh k stasiun tu cuma 2 menit, jdnya gw nyantai*! akhirnya ketinggalan train deh.. trus nyampe uni nya pas*an gtu, trus gw ga maw dong lari* d uni, tar kesandung trus jatoh malah repot.. jdnya gw power walking.. kyaaa skrg kaki gw sakit dua*nya! trus sakitnya pas d bagian tulang kering situu.. itung* olahraga sih.. hehehe tp mayan si, pegel juga... skrg kaki gw sakit smua ginih...

ow ya.. katanya, 'stress is when your tummy says no thanks and your mouth says no problem'.. tp koq kyna gw ngga stress* amat tp bawaannya pengen makaaaaaaannn terus ya? asli deh, at this rate im gonna be so fat soon.. gilaaa.. gw makan teruuuss.. td kan gw pegi late-nite-an, trus gw makan laksa semangkok gede [b2 si ma nykp makannya..] trus abis itu jalan kira* sejem-an trus gw makan hot fudge sundae-nya gelare! nduth deh gw.. i hafta stop man.. palagi d uni tuh ya, tiap kli gw break, laper ngga laper bawaan gw pengen cari makan molo b2 ma tmn gw.. qta sama* isengnya nyari makan.. wakakak.. abisnya kan ngga ngapa*in, jadinya cari aktivitas, yaitu makan! huehehehe parah ya gw? gimana niiii...

kemaren baru selese baca novel indo yang judulnya 'jakarta kafe'.. seru sih, isinya cuplikan* kehidupan macem* orang d jakarta.. emang ptama* bacanya rada* ngebingungin, gw ngga ngerti aja apa maksudnya s novelisnya d crita* itu.. tp i decided i'd think about it later and just enjoy the book.. so i did.. i enjoyed it immensely! gw suka banged! i suppose d buku itu dya cuma pengen kasi taw kehidupan manusia* jakarta, yg beda.. maksud gw, tiap orang tuh beda, masalahnya, aktivitasnya.. asli, seru banged itu buku.. emang si, tipis.. novelnya tu jdnya isinya kaya kumpulan cerita* pendek gtu..

d novel itu, ada satu crita yang gw sukaaa banged.. judulnya 'daddy'.. critanya ada satu family yg kyna happy family bgt deh.. sang istri, referred to as 'mommy', slalu crita betapa mesranya suaminya, referred to as 'daddy', n vice versa.. trus ada satu family yg rada* ngiri lah sama family ini.. abisnya family s 'mommy-daddy' ini kyna perfect banged.. the wife always looks good, the husband is always trendy, the kids are good kids.. gtu* deh.. trus one day istrinya family yg iri ini ketemu sama s 'mommy' ini d satu kafe, lagi mesra*an sama cowo laen.. trus dya jd realise, emang mungkin on the surface they look perfect and happy, tp deep down they have problems.. mgkn emang si 'mommy' itu mesra, tp mgkn kli suaminya itu ngga cukup bwat dya limpah ruah-in smua kemesraan dya.. emang si, nobody is perfect.. loe bsa iri sama org laen, thinking they have a much better life than you, but you never know wad they're REALLY experiencing inside..

well.. the grass is always greener on the other side, isn't it? but then again, always remember that nothing is always as it seems..

hei smuah! gw decide bwat ganti blog template gw.. hehe msi pake bikinan orang si, bkn bikinan gw ndiri.. abisnyah yg template kmrn dah yg mulai error* gambarnya ga kluar gtu.. so i decided it was out with that one, and in with this one..

hehe this one is even better, it's simpler, it's pink, and it has butterflies as well! gee, wad more could i ask for? wakakak.. cuma ya hopefully aja this one won't stuff up like the other one.. soale yg ini lutchuu.. gw suka bangeedd...

there are still some glitches in the blog.. eg. entry gw ngga ada titlenya, cuma tar coba gw lyat* lagi, bsa gw utak-utik ga biar titlenya kluar.. hehehe.. ini aja dah pusing td editnya segala macem, so i might try again another day.. but for the time being, mudah*an loe suka template gw yg baru.. hehehe.. ow iyah.. if u wanna give me a shout, the shoutbox is under the tagboard section.. taw lah ya? hehehe so... keep shouting, im listening ;)

ps. bwat kmu.. met ultah ya.. getting oldER.. hehe hope all goes well with your work, with family, with everything! never ever stop smiling, no matter what happens, because you've got a wonderful smile that brightens up people's day.. and everything feels better when you smile anyway.. :) gbu ya...