insensible nonsense*
April 30, 2005
..dediCated tO teMan*kUw..
posted by driE at 11:07:00 PM

baru balik abis seharian ngumpul ma temen* gw yang gila*! hahaha had sooo much fun.. gila i havent had this much fun since.. camp? wakakak.. tapie ini hanging out nya sama orang* yang sama.. hehe they are a bunch of crazy people and im turning into one of them! hwahaha.. tapie asli.. laughed sooo much todae..

laughter IS the best medicine yah.. hehe.. perasaan gw ari ini masi rada* kalut.. trus hanging out with them gw bener* merasa nyaman banged.. karna gw bsa jadi who i really am, tanpa mesti pretend, tanpa mesti mikirin what they would think of me.. senangnya.. emang seneng ya hang out sama orang* yang bsa nerima loe apa adanya, yang bsa bikin loe ketawa from the bottom of your heart no matter what time of the day.. [ngakak the whole day todae.. from 10.30am mpe 10.15pm.. hehe 12 jem bow! tp of course ada setopnya lah.. klo ga gw 6-pack-an dong.. hehe] truuss.. asieknya lagiii.. tadi sempet curhat sama mereka, en gw found out bahwa ternyata mereka ngga nganggep gw sebagai someone stupid because of what ive done [tengkyu banged ya guys.. it means so much to me..]..

gw baru nyadar, tnyata temen itu sbnrnya sesuatu yg amat konkrit ya klo loe dah bener* ketemu sama orang* yang bsa accept u and love u for who u are.. people come and go, but true friends.. they won't.. when the world turns its back on u, they'll be the faces u see, smiling at u.. temen gw even blg wkt gw putus, "dri, guys can come and go.. tp temen* kaya gw, ngga bakal pnah ninggalin eloe.." uhuk.. gw jadi terharu banged.. gw jd mikir [en even discussed it with my mum.. hehe] emang bener, temen* kaya gtu tuh ngga bakal ninggalin eloe no matter the circumstance..

trus wkt itu, pas gw lg ada masalah sama gosip [remember my older entry? yeah.. that one..] gw tanya sama temen gw yg laen lagi "eh, klo seandainya smua orang dah benci sama gw gara* gosip ini, loe bakal gmn?" then dya blg "dri, gini deh.. gw tuh taw eloe kaya apa.. gw dah knal loe lama.. mereka mo ngomong apa juga gw taw loe tuh orangnya ga kaya gtu.. wats the worst thing they can say about u sih? gw ngga bakal percaya! i'll stay right by urside.." sumpah, gw langsung berkaca*.. trus dya juga wkt itu sempet tiap ari nelpon gw, n pas gw tanya koq dya tumben nelpon gw mulu tiap ari, u know wad she sed? "hehe gw pengen nemenin eloe.. gw taw loe kesepian dri.. gw pengen gantiin dya temenin eloe tiap malem.." hwaaa.. temanku yang lutchu..

wuaahh.. my last two days were filled with soo much fun and laughter with my friends.. tengkyu so so so much ya guys.. bener* deh, without u guys gw bener* ngga taw gw dah jadi apa sekarang.. tengkyu banged bwat smua yang dah nemenin gw curhat, nemenin gw nangis n bikin gw ketawa lagi, en mungkin ini d bawah sadar loe orang, tapi bener* because of u guys gw bener* merasa gw msi ada yang sayang, msi ada yang hargain en perhatiin waktu gw lagi merasa down.. hix.. emotional entry ya? hehe.. tapie seriously, u guys make my days.. and come to think of it, even make my life.. dan temen* gw yg laen, no matter where u are, near or far.. sumpah, tengkyu banged for the support, u guys are the best d pokoke..

udah ah.. tar gw jd nangis.. *loh? emosi.. wakakak* ma acih yaa.. love u alllll to bits, from the bottom of my heart! mo blg, klo punya temen yg kaya gtu.. yg bener* sayaanngg bgt sama eloe [btw, u can tell if they REALLY love u ato cuma pretend doang..] treasure them.. trust me, its not easy to find friends like that anymore.. soo love them, tell them u love them, n dont ever ever take them for granted.. okeehh?? hehe [cih.. gw khotbah molo ya? boseeennn.. wakakak apologies for being so annoying n sok khotbah* molooo.. maaaaaaaaafffffff!!!!!!!!!]

cheers~
 
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April 29, 2005
..entRy ga pEnting!..
posted by driE at 10:13:00 PM

wuahh.. baru balik, abis ngumpul* sama temen* hi school gw dulu.. seneng dehh.. hehehe didn't realise how much i miss them until i saw them again.. enaq bgt being surrounded by the people ive known for most of my life here.. hehe miss our crazy conversations, our photo-taking addictions, our hugging-hugging habit.. hahaha..

trus.. todae got the same comment again.. funny, i keep getting this comment tiap kli gw ketemu sama temen* hi school gw.. "adri, did you cut your hair?" wakakak gila.. i dont cut my hair every two weeks.. i never cut my hair here, kcuali ma nykpnya nana.. hehehe.. gw bingung bgt masa tiap kli ketemu gw d komen-in gtu.. mgkn gara* gw abis nyuci rambut kmrn kli ya? hehe asiek juga klo tiap kli abis gw keramas rambut gw beda.. hehe ngirit ongkos salon dong gw..

pas gw d jpt, gw blg k nykp.. "ma.. aku seneng banged ketemu sama mereka... qta bener* bole d bilang grow up bareng, so basically d antara qta ngga ada mind games, ato saling men-trick, ato bad-mouthing... stuff like that.." trus nykp blg.. "kyna dulu kmu ada masalah sama s itu dehh [not mentioning names].. dulu kalian ribut mulu.." hehe trus gw pikir* bener juga si.. dulu emang gw sering bgt bete*an ma tu orang.. tp justru skrg semenjak jarang ketemu klo tiap kli ketemu jd fine* n seru* ajah.. hehe.. mgkn jadi treasure any moment qta bsa spend together kli ya?

ada 1 lagi temen gw.. we've known each other dari yr 7.. asli gw sayang banged sama dya.. n i know she does too, soale she always stands up for me.. hehe klo gw crita k dya gw d sakitin org, dya yg bete gtu, dya yg ribut maw belain gw k tu org.. hehe.. trus tadi, pas lg jalan, gw peluk lengan dya, trus gw blg "gloriaaa...." trus dya yg kaya "what's up? miss me?" trus gw cuma yg ngangguk* doang sambil cengar-cengir.. hehe trus dya blg "i miss u too.." lutchu deh, dulu pas hi school, emang qta jarang ribut, tapi klo dah ribut.. wahh ribut gede.. trus bsa diem*an mpe berhari*.. mpe one of us [or both of us kadang*..] minta maaf, baru deh, everything is back to normal.. trus tiap kli abis berantem, pasti jadi tambah deket.. because qta jd taw apa yg qta expect from each other kli ya? en klo ributnya gara* qta ada masalah sama attitude each other, kan we can change to be a better person.. tapi jangan ributnya diem*an en ngga mo kasi taw salahnya apa.. klo qta klo ada yg qta ngga suka, qta ngomong.. jdnya dya taw apa yg gw ga suka dari dya, gw taw apa yg dya ga suka dr gw.. kan qta jd sama* grow.. tul ga?

i spose this is the same for any relationship.. mo sama temen keq, sama pacar keq, sama family keq.. tiap kli ribut byasanya when it's all worked out, justru qta jadi lebih deket.. iya kan? because we learn more about that person.. something that maybe we dint know before.. duluuu.. jaman*nya gw msi pacaran, tiap kli abis ribut justru gw merasa lebih deket sama dya, soale gw jdnya taw apa yg dya expect dari gw.. walaupun kadang gw ulang lagi [my bad..] at least gw jd taw dya ngga suka klo gw melakukan itu.. justru in a relationship, klo qta blom pnah ribut, jd rada kurang deket deh rasanya..

temen gw s gloria itu blg, dya sama temen* deketnya pasti dah pnah ribut.. justru sama yg blom pnah ribut dya ga bsa deket.. karna dya ngga taw apa yg orang* itu expect dari mereka.. klo gw sama dya.. bener* qta dah ga ada malunya sama each other.. klo ngga suka, ya ngga suka.. klo suka, ya bilang! lama* kan org kesel juga dong klo d salahin terus tp ga pnah d puji.. hehe saling muji lah, ga ada salahnya gtu loh..

haha gw ngalor ngidul tp koq kaya ga ada pointnya ya.. ya point gw i guess, klo lagi ribut sama seseorang, minta maaf lah.. ribut itu a good sign loh.. it means ure in a healthy relationship.. klo ga pnah ribut malah aneh menurut gw.. jdnya yah klo loe emang salah, jangan pernah merasa gengsi bwat minta maaf.. ngapain sih gengsi*, ga ada nilainya gengsi tuh.. it's better to lose your pride with someone you love than to lose the one you love because of your useless pride..

sowie yaa klo entry gw ari ini rada* boyo.. lagi cape en teler.. hehe tadi pagi* dah mabok bikin accounting assignment.. hehe so i think i better go before entrynya makin dodol.. hehe.. daaahhh...
 
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April 27, 2005
..keKuataN TuHan!..
posted by driE at 10:32:00 PM

haaii!! saya sudah kembalii.. hehee baru balik dari camp gereja nihh.. wahh asiek banged camp-nya, padahal gw pas mo pegi tu males*an abis peginya, the night before i was sulking soale gw ngga pengen pegi.. tp setelah pegi... gilaa ga nyesel banged deh! i had sooo much fun.. dapet temen* deket baru n yang pualing penting, dapet banyak pelajaran dari camp!

kemariinn, pas camp.. d bilangin, katanya klo dapet cobaan tuh, sebagai orang Kristen ngga bole sebel or complain, justru mesti bersyukur, karna hanya lewat jalan itu qta d kuatkan! qta jadi lebih berakar lagi dalam Kristus.. gw pikir*, bener banged! gila taon ini walaupun baru lewat 4 bulan, gw merasa gw udh lbh kuat lagi berakarnya.. maybe i havent changed that much, i dont know.. tp gw bener* merasa gw udh lebih bsa berserah.. and its all because of the trials yg dah gw lewatin.. mungkin cobaan* kecil for some people, tapi bwat gw sempet jadi beban banged.. sempet stress abis, and in those times gw merasa gw cuma bsa rely on one thing.. and that is my God.. Dya bersedia dengerin curhat gw, ngga siang ngga malem ngga subuh.. He did not complain, He just listened..

enaq banged ya punya Tuhan kaya gtu.. trus yang enaknya lagi [thanks to Maya yang dah implant this thought in my head.. hehe tengs ya May!] kan Tuhan ngga bakal pnah kasi qta cobaan yang lebih berat dari kemampuan qta, jadinya qta bsa yakin, bahwa we're made to be stronger and tougher through ways that we can always handle..
isn't He great?

gw merasa justru lewat cobaan* ini gw jadi jauh lebih kuat and jauh lebih deket ma Tuhan.. perasaan keharusan gw bwat melayani sekarang dah bener* jadi kerinduan.. emang si justru lewat kelemahan qta kekuatan Tuhan di tunjukkan.. coba deh, ko pas idup qta lagi enak, we're juz cruising through life, idup qta gampang, mana qta nyadar si kebesaran Tuhan? bener ga?

gw ngga pengen jadi orang yang munafik yang sekarang bsa ngomong panjang lebar trus ntar ujung*nya gw complain soal hal yang sama.. gw ngga pengen jadi orang munafik kaya gtu.. tujuan gw nulis ini d blog gw cuma supaya klo ada orang yang lagi merasa ketindihan banged sama cobaan*nya, dya bsa merasa disadarkan akan kebesaran Tuhan.. lagipula, qta smua butuh seseorang yang bsa ngingetin qta klo qta dah mulai complain soal "duuuhh... koq cobaan gw berat banged siiiii...?" gw juga butuh seseorang yang bsa ngingetin gw klo gw dah mulai complain* lagi.. any volunteers?
 
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April 21, 2005
..happiNesS..
posted by driE at 9:49:00 PM

Happiness lives for those who cry,
those who hurt,
those who have searched,
and those who have tried,
for only they can appreciate
the importance of people
who have touched their lives.
 
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April 19, 2005
..changE the wOrLd..
posted by driE at 10:25:00 PM

haii!! here i amm.. exam* dah klar.. dengan sukses hopefully.. well 2 gw dah taw mayan sukses, soale result dah kluar.. yg 2 lg.. hiiiiiii serem! hehehe.. tp msi byk byk byk assignment nii.. due minggu dpn abis gw libur! hmm... td gw ikut persiapan guru skola minggu.. pendeta-nya sed something yg bener* capture my attention mpe gw decide bwat taro d blog gw.. hehehe niihh...

taw ga napa Tuhan suru manusia yang "beranak cuculah.. penuhilah negeri ini dengan bangsamu.."? karena ternyata.. gini nih.. klo binatang, for example ayam.. pas baru kluar dari telor.. dya bsa langsung jalan kan? emang mgkn awal*nya jatoh* dulu, tp bsa lgsg jalan.. trus other animals, misal kangguru.. lahir lgsg bsa jalan, walau tinggalnya d kantong nyokapnya..

manusia ngga bsa gtu kan? setaonan baru bsa jalan.. itu juga abis bsa tengkurep, duduk, merangkak, baru bsa jalan.. nah.. Tuhan suru manusia yg beranak cucu karena manusia itu mahkluk lemah.. they need each other to survive.. manusia co-exist so that they can rely on each other to survive.. Tuhan bilang, "take care of My sheep.." Dya pengen qta saling membantu each other, saling menjaga, saling merawat, saling mengasihi..

manusia ngga diciptakan untuk saling menjatuhkan dan saling menyakiti.. saling nge-jelek*in, saling bikin susah.. lyat aja tuh, yg namanya perang, ga penting banged kan? mereka harus saling men-support each other, saling membangun! klo qta maw make the world a better place, we better start from ourselves.. jangan harap loe bsa ngerubah sesuatu yg sebesar dunia ini if u cant change urself.. its juz not humanly possible..! so we better start from within us.. qta harus saling membantu satu sama lain.. mgkn temen loe butuh transport k some place misale.. n klo loe mo k situ juga, well ga ada salahnya jemput kan? ato ga temen loe butuh temen curhat, ga ada salahnya loe pinjemin kuping loe n hati loe bentar kan?

change the world? let's start from within us.. then change one person in Jesus' name.. cheers!
 
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April 13, 2005
..reaLity bitEs..
posted by driE at 10:57:00 PM

Dreams are wonderful, aren't they? But reality -- well, reality can often leave a bit to be desired. Lest you forget that dreams can actually become reality, however, the universe has devised a surprise.

dapet dari horoscope friendster gw tuh.. gw ngga gtu percaya horoscope si, cuma that statement above is soo true.. td baru ngomong ma temen gw, semalem gw mimpi bagus banged, d mimpi itu i felt like it was how things were meant to be.. rasanya ngga pengen bangun.. trus temen gw blg "dri, emang kadang* tu klo qta mimpi, itu rasanya indah banged sampe qta ngga pengen ninggalin mimpi qta itu.. but we live in the reality, and reality bites!"

gw inget, dulu gw pnah blg ma seseorang, "when things go wrong, i feel like im in a dream.. im walking in a dream, im living a dream.. except, its not really a dream, its a nightmare.." trus dya slalu blg "then u're not living a dream.. that's when u wake up.. reality is not always pretty u know.. it's not always rainbows in the sky.. u've always had it easy, jdnya bgtu susah, kmu slalu mikir itu tuh mimpi buruk.. sebenernya ngga.. kmu baru bangun dari mimpi kmu.."

wuahh.. bener bgt ya? reality bites.. hehehe.. tp gapapa, gw merasa, stlh gw dpt segala macem cobaan n kesulitan, gw merasa i've grown up.. even if it's onlie a little bit, i've grown up.. i'm slowly learning how to handle myself, how to handle my emotions.. sometimes it takes a few hard lessons before we actually learn and become a better person.. besi aja klo maw d jadiin baja yg lbh kuat, kan mesti d panasin dulu, mesti d tempa dulu.. it's not easy to become tougher, to become better.. we have to endure the pain first..

hmmm temen gw punya nick MSN bagus.. gw suka.. dya blg "don't let reality bite, bite the reality!"

 
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April 10, 2005
..jaDi anaK keciL yOkk..
posted by driE at 5:49:00 PM

kmrn pas gw kebaktian pemuda-remaja pas d greja, there was something interesting that happened.. actually when it was happening gw rada kesel, cuma ya.. pas d reflect.. there's something interesting behind it..

kmrn ada anak yg belum seharusnya ikut PPR dateng.. he's like.. 12 man.. gimme a break.. trus pas kmrn khotbahnya itu tentang jodoh and pasangan suami-istri.. well u can imagine how interesting that subject is to 12 year-olds.. jdnya dya boseenn bgt gtu pas lg khotbah, dya duduk d dpn gw.. trus gw lyat, dya lg gambar*.. gw ngga taw dya dapet kertas drmn, tp pokoke taw*nya ada anak kecil lg asiek gambar* d greja.. gw lyat his drawing is basically garis* squiggly yg ngga jelas, yg menuhin the whole page.. trus d bawahnya dya tulis gede* "HYPER SNAKE".. i was like, eh? a 12 year-old gambar ulernya cuma garis* ga jelas gtu?

tp klo d pikir* ya, mungkin qta yg udh rada gedean ngga bakal lyat gambar itu sebagai uler.. orang ga ada mata ngga ada mulutnya koq, cuma garis* zigzag doang.. tp mgkn with someone dengan pikiran yg masih polos, they can see something yg our complicated mind ngga bsa lyat.. mgkn qta yg dah idup rada lamaan d dunia yg kaya gini tuh otaknya dah forced to think complicatedly and dah forced to set strategies to live a decent life..

hmm enak ya jd anak kcil? they see pretty things that our eyes cant see.. qta karna udh blajar bwat be precautious with everything jdnya blom apa* udh ngga maw ngelyat something simplistically.. makanya, dulu gw pikir jd polos itu something good.. cuma koq karna gw dah jd orang polos koq gw jd d judge? padahal Tuhan blg kan d Alkitab klo qta tuh seharusnya idup kaya anak* kecil, yg polos, yg suci, yg fully depending, fully trusting, no questions asked.. because they are the owners of Heaven..

anak kcil kan slalu mikir klo yah pulang sekola pasti bakal ada makanan d rmh, their parents ga bakal do bad stuff to them.. trus mereka jg mikir there are no bad things in the world, ngga ada yg bakal jaatin mereka.. that's the way God wants us to be.. to trust Him.. and to trust other people as well.. trus jadinya gw mesti gmn? i suppose ya udah.. let it go aja.. just be careful who u trust next time around..

tapi yaa.. teteup aja menurut gw, sometimes we have to look at the world through a child's eyes.. maybe the world is a prettier place..
 
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April 09, 2005
..rumOurs..
posted by driE at 10:13:00 PM

tidaaaaaaaaaakk!!! gw malessssh! busyeett.. selasa depan ada exam, bahan 4 chapter, baru baca stenga chapter! rabu depan ada exam, bahan 4 chapter, baru ngerti 1.. arrhhh binuuunn.. ini aja harusnya blajar.. lg nge-rangkum, lalu distracted dan tiba* pengen nge-blog.. hahaha.. pamit gw ternyata ga mempan.. ga mempan to keep me away from the computer! :P

yesh, so lagie bete juga, koq orang bsa judge gw yg bener* untrue ya, padahal mereka dah knal gw lama? udah gtu, ya udah atuh klo udah judge gw kaya gtu, keep it to urself already! pake mesti rumor* segala.. what the?? kepo banged si ma idup orang, idup punya gw gtu.. koq mereka yang repot? gw maw ngapain juga ngga ada urusannya kan sama mereka? gw ngga merugikan mereka koq! emang gw nyakitin mereka in what way sih? what, i deprive them from their source of food or their source of clothing? ato did i burn down their houses in my sleep? plis dong, gw gondok banged! gw maw temenan sama sapa keq, deket sama sapa keq, ngga ada urusan sama mereka! huh, ngga makna deh gosip* gtu, emang mereka dapet apa sih dari nge-gosip? apakah itu bikin mereka gampang dapet pacar? bikin mereka dapet banyak temen? dengan cara nge-jelek*in gw?

tapi, prinsip gw, biarlah mereka mo ngomong apa tentang gw.. dengan cara gini i KNOW who my real friends are.. yang bsa gw percaya, yang bakal back me up no matter the circumstance, yang bakal stand up for me.. bonyok gw bilang... anjing menggonggong kafilah berlalu..

i'm tired of rumour starting
i'm sick of being followed
i'm tired of people lying
saying what they want about me

why can't they back up off me
why can't they let me live
i'm gonna do it my way
take this for just what it is
 
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April 06, 2005
..paMit bentaaar aJa..
posted by driE at 9:55:00 PM

sibuuk!! banyak peer, banyak assignment, plus minggu depan dah mulai mid-semester tests.. mgkn ga bsa sering* update dulu ya.. hope i can get back to blogging as soon as possible.. lagian kadang* suka ngga taw mo nulis apa.. hehehe so.. tar klo ada sesuatu yang seru, gw pasti nge-blog lagie..

but for now, i wont be seeing you often.. daaaaaaahh.. tekker ya smuaaa... GBU :)
 
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April 04, 2005
..a maNipuLative wOrLd..
posted by driE at 3:40:00 PM

hmmh.. ternyata jadi manusia yang terlalu polos itu salah ya.. jadi manusia yang terlalu baik juga salah.. pasti ada aja orang yang bakalan manfaatin kebaikan eloe, yang ngga pernah marah.. yang diapa*in terima* aja.. ternyata banyak manusia yang klo di depan eloe tuh pake topeng, pretend klo mereka suka sama eloe, pretend that they care.. tapi sebenernya dalam hati mereka they are ready to eat you alive..

we're brought up in a cruel world..
a world where we are made to believe there is not fairy tale endings..
where people put on masks..
not wanting to show who they really are..

a world where people talk behind your back..
where people manipulate your trust..
where naivety breaks you and kindness beats you..

a world where we are forced to be tough..
hide our tears and feelings..
sometimes making you a cold and indifferent person..

what a manipulative world we live in.. i'm not sure i want to bring a child into life in a world like this.. dunia jadi apa ya 10-15 tahun lagi?
 
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