One more sleep and jakarta, here i come.. Well i don't know whether it's two or one, cuz see, i'm leaving tomorrow night, so i'll be sleeping on the plane before i actually am home.. So is that one sleep or two sleeps? Aahh i don't know, i'm so excited.. Hahaha.. Anyway, so i guess i won't be blogging for 2 months and i probably won't have the time to blog tomorrow..
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so i shall leave you with a question to ponder over in these two months.. Is it better to have loved and lost, or is it better to never have loved at all?
Because if you have loved and then lost him/her, doesn't it hurt more than if you've never loved at all? If you've never loved at all then at least you haven't put your hopes up and all that jazz.. Yeah so when you've come up with the answer, post me a msg okae?
You make this world a better place
When you try your best each day
Just listen and your heart will show the way
+with all your heart-plus one+
December 13, 2004
posted by driE at 9:58:00 PM
Hooraaahh.. 2 more sleeps and i'm outta here.. Can't hardly wait.. But i've learnt that we shouldn't worry about what happened yesterday and what's gonna happen tomorrow.. Because really, we have no control over it whatsoever..
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basically we only have 3 days.. Yesterday, tomorrow and today.. Whatever happened yesterday we cannot change because it's already past and therefore we cannot change what we've said, what we've done and cannot repeat all our joy+sadness we felt yesterday.. Yesterday's already gone, let it go..
We never know what's gonna happen tomorrow, therefore no point in worrying about it.. We can't do anything for tomorrow, can't smile or cry for tomorrow.. Tomorrow has not come yet, let it be..
However, we CAN do something about today.. The past is gone, the future is yet to come.. Focus for today, do the best you can today.. Let go of the regrets of yesterday and the fear of tomorrow and just live for today.. Learn from the mistakes you made yesterday and make a difference for tomorrow..
Tell the people you love that you love them today, because you never know what will happen tomorrow..
And now I lie awake, alone at night
So afraid now to close my eyes
Just one more dream of you
i'll carry here inside
+you don't know-98 degrees+
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basically we only have 3 days.. Yesterday, tomorrow and today.. Whatever happened yesterday we cannot change because it's already past and therefore we cannot change what we've said, what we've done and cannot repeat all our joy+sadness we felt yesterday.. Yesterday's already gone, let it go..
We never know what's gonna happen tomorrow, therefore no point in worrying about it.. We can't do anything for tomorrow, can't smile or cry for tomorrow.. Tomorrow has not come yet, let it be..
However, we CAN do something about today.. The past is gone, the future is yet to come.. Focus for today, do the best you can today.. Let go of the regrets of yesterday and the fear of tomorrow and just live for today.. Learn from the mistakes you made yesterday and make a difference for tomorrow..
Tell the people you love that you love them today, because you never know what will happen tomorrow..
And now I lie awake, alone at night
So afraid now to close my eyes
Just one more dream of you
i'll carry here inside
+you don't know-98 degrees+
December 12, 2004
posted by driE at 2:22:00 PM
Heyy.. Anotha day.. Countdown to jakarta: 3 days! Hahaha.. Actually i'm not really in the mood for blogging todae.. Just got back from church, played a lil bit of guitar at home, and i think i mite be going out later.. Play some sorta sport.. Hehe.. Getting the 'athletic' side of me a little exercise! :þ
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ahh gee i'm so lazy, i'm supposed to be packing and cleaning since we're leaving soon but really cannot be bothered.. Been doing a little bit of cleaning here and there, but nothing serious.. Lotsa ironing to do.. Can't be stuffed.. Cleaned my room the other day, i actually have some living space now.. Haaha.. I don't know, i'm just so tired all the time now.. Like right this moment, i would love to lie down on my bed and fly to dreamland.. Ooh i read an article in a magazine a couple of days ago about being tired.. Did you know that it's not only vitamin defeciency and not enough rest that makes you so weak and tired? It can also be because:
1. Disorganisation: messy room, messy wardrobe, messy table, messy anything, really.. This habit of being messy can cause your brain to be messy too..
2. Too much friend-problem: what i mean is you've been listening too much to your friends' complaints that it gets to you and makes you think too much!
3. Negative thinking: yup, i know for a fact that too much negative thinking is exhausting for the brain! Last night i had the good night sleep i haven't had for ages bcoz i decided that negative thinking doesn't help solve anything, so i thought i'd just pray about it.. I just do my best and let God do the rest.. Negative thinking just makes me tired and wastes my precious brain cells! Hehe
4. Too many activities: well we all know that this is physically draining right??
So my advice is [whoa.. I sound like an advice columnist.. Haha] set your priorities right, spoil yourself once in a while, and take it easy.. Have a break! Good luck..
Well I wonder could it be when I was dreaming 'bout you
Baby you were dreaming of me
Call me crazy, call me blind
To still be suffering is stupid after all of this time
+the day you went away-m2m+
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ahh gee i'm so lazy, i'm supposed to be packing and cleaning since we're leaving soon but really cannot be bothered.. Been doing a little bit of cleaning here and there, but nothing serious.. Lotsa ironing to do.. Can't be stuffed.. Cleaned my room the other day, i actually have some living space now.. Haaha.. I don't know, i'm just so tired all the time now.. Like right this moment, i would love to lie down on my bed and fly to dreamland.. Ooh i read an article in a magazine a couple of days ago about being tired.. Did you know that it's not only vitamin defeciency and not enough rest that makes you so weak and tired? It can also be because:
1. Disorganisation: messy room, messy wardrobe, messy table, messy anything, really.. This habit of being messy can cause your brain to be messy too..
2. Too much friend-problem: what i mean is you've been listening too much to your friends' complaints that it gets to you and makes you think too much!
3. Negative thinking: yup, i know for a fact that too much negative thinking is exhausting for the brain! Last night i had the good night sleep i haven't had for ages bcoz i decided that negative thinking doesn't help solve anything, so i thought i'd just pray about it.. I just do my best and let God do the rest.. Negative thinking just makes me tired and wastes my precious brain cells! Hehe
4. Too many activities: well we all know that this is physically draining right??
So my advice is [whoa.. I sound like an advice columnist.. Haha] set your priorities right, spoil yourself once in a while, and take it easy.. Have a break! Good luck..
Well I wonder could it be when I was dreaming 'bout you
Baby you were dreaming of me
Call me crazy, call me blind
To still be suffering is stupid after all of this time
+the day you went away-m2m+
December 11, 2004
posted by driE at 1:24:00 PM
Finally it's saturday.. Actually it's been surprising how fast this week has flown by.. Thanks to all my friends who keep me smiling! :) love you guys so much.. I'd been quite upset before because a couple of my bestest friends have decided they'd go back to indo to continue their studies.. But i had a think about it [been thinking too much lately, my poor, poor brain.. Hehe] maybe even if they leave, that doesn't necessarily mean that it's the end of our friendship...
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at the end of the day, you will realise who your real friends are.. Those who stick by you through your ups and downs, and those who will never look down on you, except when they're helping you up.. Those who accept you as you are, without trying to change you to become the kind of friend they want to have.. Yes, it is good if they try to change you to become a better person, like tell you to study more, use your time more effectively.. But they shouldn't become possessive of you.. True, you will have your disagreements, but it will not be enough to destroy the friendship you have..
Sometimes the bestest friends you will ever have are those who are almost completely your opposite.. You're clean, [s]he is messy.. You're introverted, [s]he is extroverted.. I don't exactly know why, but this is probably because you can learn something from them and they can learn something from you.. One of my best friends is almost completely different from me.. We have different perspectives, we have different likes and dislikes.. And yet i feel that she gives me the best advice.. I trust her.. It's funny because we'd been in the same school forever back in jakarta and yet we only became friends when she came over to visit perth a few years back.. We discovered that we instantly connected..
If you've been hurt by a friend, or lost a friend, or something along those lines, don't grief because whether you realise it or not, the pain has helped shape you to become the person you are now.. Your friends have added colour to your fabric of life, added a chapter or two to your book of life.. So just be thankful.. Treasure your friends, because good friends are like a four-leafed clover.. Hard to find and Lucky to have..
So many memories and so many miles
The road that stretches behind us
We've had some laughter and our share of tears
But all these moments unite us
+i will be your friend-michael w smith+
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at the end of the day, you will realise who your real friends are.. Those who stick by you through your ups and downs, and those who will never look down on you, except when they're helping you up.. Those who accept you as you are, without trying to change you to become the kind of friend they want to have.. Yes, it is good if they try to change you to become a better person, like tell you to study more, use your time more effectively.. But they shouldn't become possessive of you.. True, you will have your disagreements, but it will not be enough to destroy the friendship you have..
Sometimes the bestest friends you will ever have are those who are almost completely your opposite.. You're clean, [s]he is messy.. You're introverted, [s]he is extroverted.. I don't exactly know why, but this is probably because you can learn something from them and they can learn something from you.. One of my best friends is almost completely different from me.. We have different perspectives, we have different likes and dislikes.. And yet i feel that she gives me the best advice.. I trust her.. It's funny because we'd been in the same school forever back in jakarta and yet we only became friends when she came over to visit perth a few years back.. We discovered that we instantly connected..
If you've been hurt by a friend, or lost a friend, or something along those lines, don't grief because whether you realise it or not, the pain has helped shape you to become the person you are now.. Your friends have added colour to your fabric of life, added a chapter or two to your book of life.. So just be thankful.. Treasure your friends, because good friends are like a four-leafed clover.. Hard to find and Lucky to have..
So many memories and so many miles
The road that stretches behind us
We've had some laughter and our share of tears
But all these moments unite us
+i will be your friend-michael w smith+
December 10, 2004
posted by driE at 1:35:00 AM
Today's been tough.. This whole LD business is so tricky.. I've been trying to keep myself occupied so that i wouldn't have even a second to think about him.. But in that moment when i get into the shower or when i wake up in the morning, my mind travels off to him yet again.. It hurts deep inside my heart.. I've been reading a lot and getting my mum take me places so that i'm distracted, but in those times when i'm all alone or doing something that doesn't require much thinking, there goes my mind again.. Gee, doesn't it like travelling.. It's like everywhere i go i'm reminded of him.. And i even still have his scent on the jumper i wore to his place.. It's like a trigger that pokes the back of my eyes to produce tears.. So i wrote stuff on LD.. Hope you enjoy it..
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yesterday while talking to my brother, he so suddenly said, 'don't you think there's so many more people having long-distance relationships than there used to?' i never really thought of this but when he brought it up, it caught me in a surprise..
Well living in a country such as perth where people come to study then go back home where they belong, i really shouldn't be surprised over LD relationships right? And I said as much to my brother, i mean if you get a girl/boyfriend in such countries there's a huge chance that you'll end up LD-ing with that person.. But if you think about it, if you're going out with a career [wo]man who travels a lot, wouldn't that be the same as LD-ing? And in a world as globalised as this, there's bound to be a lot more travelling than there used to..
Okay, maybe people think that with the advancement in technology, LD will become easier.. You know with all the mobile phones, emails, MSN, webcams and what-nots.. Aarh it doesn't help! Okay, maybe a little.. But it's like, sometimes you just miss their touch, you know? Their kisses, their breath on your skin.. You need ALL that! Of course you gotta keep the communication going.. What's a relationship without communication? Sometimes you feel much, much better just knowing where they are, what they're up to.. Just to know they are safe.. It certainly earns me a good night's sleep..
To all LD-ers out there, good luck, be good, trust each other, have faith in each other.. If the relationship is worth keeping, don't ever let it fall apart..
It's your smile, your face, your lips that I miss
Those sweet little eyes that stare at me and make me say
I'm with you through all the way
+you-basil valdez+
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yesterday while talking to my brother, he so suddenly said, 'don't you think there's so many more people having long-distance relationships than there used to?' i never really thought of this but when he brought it up, it caught me in a surprise..
Well living in a country such as perth where people come to study then go back home where they belong, i really shouldn't be surprised over LD relationships right? And I said as much to my brother, i mean if you get a girl/boyfriend in such countries there's a huge chance that you'll end up LD-ing with that person.. But if you think about it, if you're going out with a career [wo]man who travels a lot, wouldn't that be the same as LD-ing? And in a world as globalised as this, there's bound to be a lot more travelling than there used to..
Okay, maybe people think that with the advancement in technology, LD will become easier.. You know with all the mobile phones, emails, MSN, webcams and what-nots.. Aarh it doesn't help! Okay, maybe a little.. But it's like, sometimes you just miss their touch, you know? Their kisses, their breath on your skin.. You need ALL that! Of course you gotta keep the communication going.. What's a relationship without communication? Sometimes you feel much, much better just knowing where they are, what they're up to.. Just to know they are safe.. It certainly earns me a good night's sleep..
To all LD-ers out there, good luck, be good, trust each other, have faith in each other.. If the relationship is worth keeping, don't ever let it fall apart..
It's your smile, your face, your lips that I miss
Those sweet little eyes that stare at me and make me say
I'm with you through all the way
+you-basil valdez+
December 09, 2004
posted by driE at 2:16:00 PM
Yuup, so my very first entry.. Had a blog once very long ago.. Didn't work out.. Haha too young+foolish.. So decided I shall give it another go.. Why not, eh? Now seeing blogs are popular once again.. So here goes..
--------------------------------------------------hope /hõp/ v.To wish for something with expectation of its fulfillment.
Some people live because they have hope.. If you live without hope, then what is the point of living? Wake up each day, just to get through the day and do the things you MUST do instead of the things you WANT to do? I was talking to a friend the other day, we've decided that living without hope is like being a zombie, living someone else's life.. You don't know what you want, you don't have a purpose in life..
With another friend, we've decided that putting too much hope on something is not good either, because if it doesn't come true, imagine how that would feel..but i said that a life without hope, is like a breath without the air.. Having said that, i know that putting too much hope on something mostly ends up hurting me.. I try soo hard to keep my hope down low and my faith up high, but i still fall into that hole once in a while.. I'm not saying that we shouldn't have hope, but quite the opposite.. Hope for something, it gives you guidance for where you want to go in life..
/punya hati jangan dibawa terbang tinggi*, kalau jatuh, sakiit banget.. Tapi kalau ngga terbang tinggi, ngga bisa liat pemandangan indah../
I wonder if you ever see me and I wonder if you know I'm there
If you looked in my eyes would you see what's inside, would you even care? +dreaming of you-selena+